[ that's a... good story? sounds fake? finn looks down at bb-8 again for a sec like this mystery is gonna magically unfurl itself right in front of him. it fails to do so. but he tries to be a good sport and give bb-8 a little head pap. wow, he hopes that's a thing people do.
if any of that really happened, he doesn't remember it.
he doesn't think he actually needs to say so. he thinks poe is probably painfully aware. ]
If I... [ oh boy you know what's cool? thinking of what you're about to ask and having to wrestle down every single spike of learned panic that rears up over it.
but he wants to ask more than he is scared of his own brain bullshit, for once. ]
If I go back. With you. After this. [ you can do this. just force words to come out of your mouth and hate yourself for nebulous Reasons later. tbh it kind of helps to still be holding a hand. shoutout to poe's hand. ] Would I have to stay?
[ he's too afraid to ask if they might really be able to help. he's definitely too afraid to believe he really will make it there. i mean i guess generally he's too afraid to be hopeful.
but if they make it there, that's a reconditioned stormtrooper with directions to a rebel base. if there is no helping him, or if he doesn't want to be there-- look, if he wanted to rot in a holding cell, he could have shot poe earlier and at least done it somewhere familiar, that's all i'm saying. ]
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if any of that really happened, he doesn't remember it.
he doesn't think he actually needs to say so. he thinks poe is probably painfully aware. ]
If I... [ oh boy you know what's cool? thinking of what you're about to ask and having to wrestle down every single spike of learned panic that rears up over it.
but he wants to ask more than he is scared of his own brain bullshit, for once. ]
If I go back. With you. After this. [ you can do this. just force words to come out of your mouth and hate yourself for nebulous Reasons later. tbh it kind of helps to still be holding a hand. shoutout to poe's hand. ] Would I have to stay?
[ he's too afraid to ask if they might really be able to help. he's definitely too afraid to believe he really will make it there. i mean i guess generally he's too afraid to be hopeful.
but if they make it there, that's a reconditioned stormtrooper with directions to a rebel base. if there is no helping him, or if he doesn't want to be there-- look, if he wanted to rot in a holding cell, he could have shot poe earlier and at least done it somewhere familiar, that's all i'm saying. ]