poe dameron is like trying to talk to a dream he maybe had ten years ago and forgot about. just something that happens, he guesses, all things considered. it feels like a name he should know. it feels like a name he already knew how to say. it feels like something that stood on the edge of his vision so long that it left an impression every time he blinks. he reaches up to put a hand over poe's without thinking. squeezes once, hard.
there might be good real things in the universe, good enough to be poe dameron, but he falls flat trying to figure out how anything that good could realistically wind up next to him. not unless it's to give him something exclusively to rip it back out.
because the first order is real. they're real and he did something that was enough to earn that from them. that's maybe the only thing he hasn't wondered about. ]
You know that's exactly what you'd say if it weren't.
[ it's not an accusation or even an argument. just kinda that "cheers bro, at least mildly better for the fact that u tried" vibe.
if he's sure one way half the time, then he's sure the other way the other half of the time. ]
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[ it suits him.
poe dameron is like trying to talk to a dream he maybe had ten years ago and forgot about. just something that happens, he guesses, all things considered. it feels like a name he should know. it feels like a name he already knew how to say. it feels like something that stood on the edge of his vision so long that it left an impression every time he blinks. he reaches up to put a hand over poe's without thinking. squeezes once, hard.
there might be good real things in the universe, good enough to be poe dameron, but he falls flat trying to figure out how anything that good could realistically wind up next to him. not unless it's to give him something exclusively to rip it back out.
because the first order is real. they're real and he did something that was enough to earn that from them. that's maybe the only thing he hasn't wondered about. ]
You know that's exactly what you'd say if it weren't.
[ it's not an accusation or even an argument. just kinda that "cheers bro, at least mildly better for the fact that u tried" vibe.
if he's sure one way half the time, then he's sure the other way the other half of the time. ]