he thinks poe banks too much on hope. he thinks poe probably really misses a friend that he'll never get back, and he's not sure if poe is in denial about it or something, because he's not looking forward to the fallout if that's the case.
he's starting to think that every time he starts to feel like he has a handle on anything, his brain is hard-wired to somehow remind him that he absolutely doesn't.
that said, he's a disaster. but he's a touch-starved disaster, so he allows this. tentatively, and certainly not relaxing into it, but he allows it. he has the full capacity to shove poe away if he decides he's done with the touching, and poe would probably definitely stop if he did it, and that makes a difference. that's more than he's been able to trust anyone in his vicinity to do since he went in for reconditioning, as far as he can figure. that makes a difference, too.
(why would any human person plan to just ask someone to move if they get too squirrelly about it... smh.) the jenga tower hobbles onward. ]
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he thinks poe banks too much on hope. he thinks poe probably really misses a friend that he'll never get back, and he's not sure if poe is in denial about it or something, because he's not looking forward to the fallout if that's the case.
he's starting to think that every time he starts to feel like he has a handle on anything, his brain is hard-wired to somehow remind him that he absolutely doesn't.
that said, he's a disaster. but he's a touch-starved disaster, so he allows this. tentatively, and certainly not relaxing into it, but he allows it. he has the full capacity to shove poe away if he decides he's done with the touching, and poe would probably definitely stop if he did it, and that makes a difference. that's more than he's been able to trust anyone in his vicinity to do since he went in for reconditioning, as far as he can figure. that makes a difference, too.
(why would any human person plan to just ask someone to move if they get too squirrelly about it... smh.) the jenga tower hobbles onward. ]
You believe in an awful lot of things.