he wonders what it's like to grow up getting to choose stuff. like what you eat or what you wear or what you want to be or what farm equipment you attach advanced machinery to. almost exactly that pretty much slips right out of his mouth before he can catch it-- what was it like to have a reason to become something-- but he doesn't know if he wants to know an answer.
that's probably one of those things that people couldn't really answer, anyway. it's not something that they know what it's like, it's just something about them that is. it would be like someone asking him what it's like to be a stormtrooper. what's the frame of reference? he just is one. ]
There's too much space in space. [ it yawns open around things. it never stops. there's nothing in it. it's coarse and it's irritating and it gets everywhere smdh. ] I'm better with my feet on the ground. Normally. I think.
[ maybe a flight while he's not crushed by the weight of his own issues in a tiny shitty tie fighter or actively trying to avoid getting blown up would be... good...? he's not against trying to see the appeal, god knows there are probably gonna be a ton of ships in his future. ]
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he wonders what it's like to grow up getting to choose stuff. like what you eat or what you wear or what you want to be or what farm equipment you attach advanced machinery to. almost exactly that pretty much slips right out of his mouth before he can catch it-- what was it like to have a reason to become something-- but he doesn't know if he wants to know an answer.
that's probably one of those things that people couldn't really answer, anyway. it's not something that they know what it's like, it's just something about them that is. it would be like someone asking him what it's like to be a stormtrooper. what's the frame of reference? he just is one. ]
There's too much space in space. [ it yawns open around things. it never stops. there's nothing in it. it's coarse and it's irritating and it gets everywhere smdh. ] I'm better with my feet on the ground. Normally. I think.
[ maybe a flight while he's not crushed by the weight of his own issues in a tiny shitty tie fighter or actively trying to avoid getting blown up would be... good...? he's not against trying to see the appeal, god knows there are probably gonna be a ton of ships in his future. ]
Probably why I'm not a pilot.