[ he's glad poe didn't try to be that guy. like, if poe went in for that, he'd have no choice but to be a debbie downer out loud about it, and he doesn't wanna have a "say it. out loud. they're almost definitely probably dead." moment.
well, he would have a choice. to not say that. he would say it though. false hope is a broad waste. ]
Sure.
[ he fits in better with poe and bb-8 in a day than he ever fit with the other cadets. probably also a bad sign. finn is starting to burn out on tallying up all the shit he thinks he shouldn't be doing or feeling or having, though. there's not much point bothering. something else is just gonna line up each time. he doesn't have a bottomless well of self hatred to spend on it. just like he doesn't have a bottomless well of vulnerability. (finn you literally sat on the ground and cried first thing???) ]
There's not much else to it. Train, follow orders. I still used to be one of the best ones they turned out. [ and he can say that with the certainty of someone who just knows it's true. same way everyone knew slip slipped up. fn-2187 was better. ]
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well, he would have a choice. to not say that. he would say it though. false hope is a broad waste. ]
Sure.
[ he fits in better with poe and bb-8 in a day than he ever fit with the other cadets. probably also a bad sign. finn is starting to burn out on tallying up all the shit he thinks he shouldn't be doing or feeling or having, though. there's not much point bothering. something else is just gonna line up each time. he doesn't have a bottomless well of self hatred to spend on it. just like he doesn't have a bottomless well of vulnerability. (finn you literally sat on the ground and cried first thing???) ]
There's not much else to it. Train, follow orders. I still used to be one of the best ones they turned out. [ and he can say that with the certainty of someone who just knows it's true. same way everyone knew slip slipped up. fn-2187 was better. ]