[ they need chewie or leia. the only two star wars who have enough of a handle on their own shit to be able to take on another person's en masse and help them with it. rip.

it's all still something to think about. it's what he wanted to do after. be better. fix his mistakes. he almost says something like no, what do you do with commands you can't justify.

but he guesses poe just doesn't follow them. that was a whole thing. they sort of. have that in common? only poe was a lot more yolo maybe, and has possibly done it more than once to his own memory. still. take the cheeto by the horns. until disaster inevitably must strike again. ]

I couldn't follow orders. On my first deployment. Thought that was why they sent me to reconditioning, for a while. [ to have another chance. to be better next time.

apparently he got another chance and completely biffed it tho. which he wasn't expecting. ]