[at first he's like "why does that matter???" and then it quickly hits him going at full-force. oh. it's because finn still thinks he's going to go back despite telling him five million times he isn't going to go back, and he doesn't want to make the list of things they'd presumably punish him for even longer.
or, you know, thinking about himself ... he could spend more time on the torture rack. he'd been trying real hard not to think about that, mostly because he's been so busy being in Protect Finn mode and refused to even accept the bad end where they were both captured by the first order as a possibility. but, now that he is thinking about it ... yeah. that sounds about right. more torture. gonna shove those ptsd vibes back in the closet and ignore the sense of disquiet running down his spine.
everything is fine. he's just gonna go back to Protect Finn mode. ignore that whole second where the color drained from his face. don't fuckin worry about it.]
Fine, just leave it to me if the First Order shows up, then. I can handle it.
[just gonna pvp the entire first order. that also sounds about right.]
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or, you know, thinking about himself ... he could spend more time on the torture rack. he'd been trying real hard not to think about that, mostly because he's been so busy being in Protect Finn mode and refused to even accept the bad end where they were both captured by the first order as a possibility. but, now that he is thinking about it ... yeah. that sounds about right. more torture. gonna shove those ptsd vibes back in the closet and ignore the sense of disquiet running down his spine.
everything is fine. he's just gonna go back to Protect Finn mode. ignore that whole second where the color drained from his face. don't fuckin worry about it.]
Fine, just leave it to me if the First Order shows up, then. I can handle it.
[just gonna pvp the entire first order. that also sounds about right.]