Of course I think that! [ he can't even... space jesus, what is this conversation.
don't worry about it.
this fuckin guy and his droid and his rings and his dumb face and his dumb generalizations, and his "things work out" and "the universe tries to teach us lessons". there are a lot of things that finn's been trying not to think about. the sheer differences, the incompatible edges of how they think the world functions, that's gotten top billing to be pushed aside.
because poe is nice, and life hasn't been nice, and the world isn't nice, and that's how it is and you get what you deserve. so he can't just shoot poe even though he probably should've. he can't ditch him in a crowd and find a way back to what he knows he actually deserves.
he just keeps-- gravitating back, selfishly, and reaching for poe's hand, trying to make himself believe this is all a real thing that could be happening or work out for anybody. he keeps letting poe dameron call him someone else's name, keeps wondering what it was like to be that, what it would've been like. asking if he had a life, asking if they took that from him, like it makes a difference in the end.
he keeps trusting. he keeps attaching himself.
it's no wonder they left him in that cell. ]
Why don't you ever-- I try to tell you how this is gonna end and you don't understand! You won't understand! I don't know how to explain something you should've figured out when it apparently happened the first time!
[ WE WERE OVERDUE FOR ANOTHER MELTDOWN I GUESS??? it's fine this is fine. ]
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don't worry about it.
this fuckin guy and his droid and his rings and his dumb face and his dumb generalizations, and his "things work out" and "the universe tries to teach us lessons". there are a lot of things that finn's been trying not to think about. the sheer differences, the incompatible edges of how they think the world functions, that's gotten top billing to be pushed aside.
because poe is nice, and life hasn't been nice, and the world isn't nice, and that's how it is and you get what you deserve. so he can't just shoot poe even though he probably should've. he can't ditch him in a crowd and find a way back to what he knows he actually deserves.
he just keeps-- gravitating back, selfishly, and reaching for poe's hand, trying to make himself believe this is all a real thing that could be happening or work out for anybody. he keeps letting poe dameron call him someone else's name, keeps wondering what it was like to be that, what it would've been like. asking if he had a life, asking if they took that from him, like it makes a difference in the end.
he keeps trusting. he keeps attaching himself.
it's no wonder they left him in that cell. ]
Why don't you ever-- I try to tell you how this is gonna end and you don't understand! You won't understand! I don't know how to explain something you should've figured out when it apparently happened the first time!
[ WE WERE OVERDUE FOR ANOTHER MELTDOWN I GUESS??? it's fine this is fine. ]