[finn's voice scratches the record on his whole dumb depression montage. this is why he stayed here. why he waited. finn needed him. Purpose has been restored. the galaxy is a good place. he loses sight of that sometimes, but always circles back to it eventually.
he wants to say it's okay, that even if finn wanted to leave again, that would be okay too because he's a person and free to make whatever choices he wants.
but he can't.
the words don't come out. because he's so selfishly glad he came back. because it meant he wouldn't have to be alone. because he couldn't confront how scared he was that maybe that was the last time he'd ever see finn. that he'd told him to go away, and he listened and walked straight back into hell. because he told him to go away.
he walks farther down the ramp to get closer to finn.]
It's gonna be okay. I know it doesn't seem like it now, but it's gonna be okay.
[how? he doesn't know. but he knows that it will be. it has to be. he let finn go and finn came back. that had to mean something.]
Can I hug you?
[he says it like he is going to be a brand new poe dameron who doesn't just rush in and do whatever he wants, but that illusion is shattered quickly because he doesn't wait for an answer before just going for it. kriff it. maybe he'll just hug finn until they both die. good plan.]
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he wants to say it's okay, that even if finn wanted to leave again, that would be okay too because he's a person and free to make whatever choices he wants.
but he can't.
the words don't come out. because he's so selfishly glad he came back. because it meant he wouldn't have to be alone. because he couldn't confront how scared he was that maybe that was the last time he'd ever see finn. that he'd told him to go away, and he listened and walked straight back into hell. because he told him to go away.
he walks farther down the ramp to get closer to finn.]
It's gonna be okay. I know it doesn't seem like it now, but it's gonna be okay.
[how? he doesn't know. but he knows that it will be. it has to be. he let finn go and finn came back. that had to mean something.]
Can I hug you?
[he says it like he is going to be a brand new poe dameron who doesn't just rush in and do whatever he wants, but that illusion is shattered quickly because he doesn't wait for an answer before just going for it. kriff it. maybe he'll just hug finn until they both die. good plan.]