[he shakes his head.] No, no, you don't have to worry about me. I've got everything under control.
[what a joke. he has never had less control over anything, including and not limited to that crash landing on jakku. or the crash landing on coruscant to be honest; that might have actually been worse because it took longer. this is a crash landing that takes even longer in that it never actually ends. just a rapid downward spiral of "what is my life right now even." sometimes he thinks he makes some progress up, but then he just slides back on down. now is an upswing, though. maybe he'll find purchase this time.
besides, does he even look like he has anything under control??? like, on an external level? no. look at him. a gay disaster garbage man. who was crying as recently as a few seconds ago. but he's trying. now that he has a purpose again, he can go back to 100 emoji-ing that purpose and stop panicking. (on the inside.)
he pulls away a little bit and claps finn on the shoulder. that is a normal thing to do. he is emulating normal behavior. maybe if he tries hard enough, it'll come true. fake it 'til you make it is the current big mood of his entire existence.]
I — do you want to come in? [no poe he wants to keep sitting outside the ship??? dumbass.] BB-8 and I cleaned it up a little. [bb-8. he means just bb-8. but his son won't rat him out this time ... finn wouldn't even appreciate it. his dissent keeps falling on deaf ears. seriously finn, learn binary.]
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[what a joke. he has never had less control over anything, including and not limited to that crash landing on jakku. or the crash landing on coruscant to be honest; that might have actually been worse because it took longer. this is a crash landing that takes even longer in that it never actually ends. just a rapid downward spiral of "what is my life right now even." sometimes he thinks he makes some progress up, but then he just slides back on down. now is an upswing, though. maybe he'll find purchase this time.
besides, does he even look like he has anything under control??? like, on an external level? no. look at him. a gay disaster garbage man. who was crying as recently as a few seconds ago. but he's trying. now that he has a purpose again, he can go back to 100 emoji-ing that purpose and stop panicking. (on the inside.)
he pulls away a little bit and claps finn on the shoulder. that is a normal thing to do. he is emulating normal behavior. maybe if he tries hard enough, it'll come true. fake it 'til you make it is the current big mood of his entire existence.]
I — do you want to come in? [no poe he wants to keep sitting outside the ship??? dumbass.] BB-8 and I cleaned it up a little. [bb-8. he means just bb-8. but his son won't rat him out this time ... finn wouldn't even appreciate it. his dissent keeps falling on deaf ears. seriously finn, learn binary.]