[ he bets this never ends. he bets he never knows what he wants and spends twenty years cumulatively out of his life crying under the porch to get back into houses he panicked and ran out of. and then maybe another ten years not thinking at all, give or take. he bets he's never fn-2187 again like he used to be, and he bets he's never finn again like he apparently also used to be.
but he knows what he doesn't want.
he doesn't want to be alone.
he doesn't want to leave poe again. his "nice things"-odometer got a hard reset. he's not a dumb baby duck irl he's just sad and gay and tired like everyone else in this universe, and he's like, maybe i'll hang onto this thing as long as i can even if i don't know what to do with it. deserving doesn't matter.
he doesn't wanna keep sitting outside the ship forever. that was just his plan for if poe found a better way off-world while they were having their montage. ]
Yeah. Sure, yeah, that-- I'd like that. [ new mission: be Good. don't complain even if there's still rats. don't get eaten by the rats he doesn't know are dead yet. that's the whole mission.
just gonna scrub at his face a little and get up and tackle this... week? maybe someone threw away a calendar they can use someday. it's been A Time Span. and he will tackle it one thing at a time hopefully. he doesn't know. ]
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but he knows what he doesn't want.
he doesn't want to be alone.
he doesn't want to leave poe again. his "nice things"-odometer got a hard reset. he's not a dumb baby duck irl he's just sad and gay and tired like everyone else in this universe, and he's like, maybe i'll hang onto this thing as long as i can even if i don't know what to do with it. deserving doesn't matter.
he doesn't wanna keep sitting outside the ship forever. that was just his plan for if poe found a better way off-world while they were having their montage. ]
Yeah. Sure, yeah, that-- I'd like that. [ new mission: be Good. don't complain even if there's still rats. don't get eaten by the rats he doesn't know are dead yet. that's the whole mission.
just gonna scrub at his face a little and get up and tackle this... week? maybe someone threw away a calendar they can use someday. it's been A Time Span. and he will tackle it one thing at a time hopefully. he doesn't know. ]