[ he gets knocked off his feet (still wearing restraints didn't give him much of an opportunity to brace himself), but he's not worried about it. it doesn't really register for him. he's too busy feeling his own hurt emotions.

as much as he was willing to go to bat for leia, he had a chink in his armor regarding her and kylo went straight for it.

he knew he'd never replace brianna. he didn't expect to, he couldn't ask that of her, but when he thought of some scenario in the future where kylo would turn and brianna would come home…

where would that leave him? she'd have no more void left to fill. no more use for him. ]

I wouldn't say that. For being her daughter, you don't understand much about her.

[ leia was a pragmatist, first and foremost. that's how she could endure loss after loss, he imagined. they didn't have the men or resources for a rescue mission. if she was hurt by that awful holo he was forced to be part of … she'd bury it, probably. ]

And my mom, she's — she wouldn't want me to be alone. If she were here, I wouldn't have to be. You don't know anything.

[ yep, he lost whatever tenuous advantage he had. going for shara bey decimated his ability to reason. his own anger and hurt bleeds out. ]