[ there's a vague shadow of a feeling from the pricking, and then something sharp (still numb, not at full capacity, if that were the case he'd be screaming) when she drives the blade clean through his hand. his eyes go wide — not at the pain, but at the mental panic of what he's seeing. he knows what she's doing, or at least whatever thought she's at least toying with.
she's going for his hands. she's hitting him where it would hurt the most emotionally instead of physically. pretty hard to be a pilot if you can't use your hands properly. the little spark of hope in him that refused to die wanted to believe that there was a chance he'd get to fly out of here. he didn't know when or why or how, but he did know that it wasn't going to happen if something happened to his hands.
and he hated just how hard this blow towards him actually hit. warning sirens go off in his head. ]
Does it make a difference?
[ he felt like she was likely to keep going no matter what his response was. and even asking that question was just as liable to make it worse as it was to make it better, probably. he's slowly acclimating himself to these no win scenarios. nothing he said or did actually made much of a difference in the outcomes. everything was entirely dependent on kylo ren's whims.
there was something equal parts nauseating and depressing in that realization. ]
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she's going for his hands. she's hitting him where it would hurt the most emotionally instead of physically. pretty hard to be a pilot if you can't use your hands properly. the little spark of hope in him that refused to die wanted to believe that there was a chance he'd get to fly out of here. he didn't know when or why or how, but he did know that it wasn't going to happen if something happened to his hands.
and he hated just how hard this blow towards him actually hit. warning sirens go off in his head. ]
Does it make a difference?
[ he felt like she was likely to keep going no matter what his response was. and even asking that question was just as liable to make it worse as it was to make it better, probably. he's slowly acclimating himself to these no win scenarios. nothing he said or did actually made much of a difference in the outcomes. everything was entirely dependent on kylo ren's whims.
there was something equal parts nauseating and depressing in that realization. ]