[ The anxiety in her scent pitches, continuing to sour the air — more over time, not less. She squirms as though she means to free herself from his knot, but it's a worthless endeavor, and something clenches in her chest at even the thought. She couldn't stand to part from him right now, despite wanting to desperately. It would only push her from grief and misery into a full-blown panic attack.
But lying here with him, drinking in the comfort he tries to offer her with his remorse, it feels dirty and wrong in another way.
She's not just wrong and broken. She's a monster. She's taken Finn's alpha, and it's too easy to hear Poe's apology as a clear declaration of how it's her fault. Her pheromones. Beyond that, she's displeased him, made him miserable when they're supposed to be taking care of each other. A reminder that she is not his mate, she is something broken and disappointing that is only here to distract him, to ruin something that he loves.
She releases a croaking groan and stops shifting suddenly. It feels too good, the way he's stretching her. She hates that especially, right now. ]
I thought you were different.
[ She mutters this because she can't hold it back. There's bitterness there which accuses alpha as a whole of this behavior. Marking without asking, disappointing their omegas. He was supposed to cherish Finn the way that Ben had never properly cherished her. They were supposed to be the fairytale. But he'd hurt Finn and he'd hurt Rey and he was— ]
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But lying here with him, drinking in the comfort he tries to offer her with his remorse, it feels dirty and wrong in another way.
She's not just wrong and broken. She's a monster. She's taken Finn's alpha, and it's too easy to hear Poe's apology as a clear declaration of how it's her fault. Her pheromones. Beyond that, she's displeased him, made him miserable when they're supposed to be taking care of each other. A reminder that she is not his mate, she is something broken and disappointing that is only here to distract him, to ruin something that he loves.
She releases a croaking groan and stops shifting suddenly. It feels too good, the way he's stretching her. She hates that especially, right now. ]
I thought you were different.
[ She mutters this because she can't hold it back. There's bitterness there which accuses alpha as a whole of this behavior. Marking without asking, disappointing their omegas. He was supposed to cherish Finn the way that Ben had never properly cherished her. They were supposed to be the fairytale. But he'd hurt Finn and he'd hurt Rey and he was— ]
You were supposed to take care of him.