[ whatever release of tension in his muscles he'd found in the shower is gone now. every inch of him feels either wound up or stretched taut when she presses him against the wall.
maybe what he really hates is that she isn't wrong. he hadn't considered it before, not really. in the fight or flight situation, his mind took flight every time. (and maybe some of it was because she was a woman. even if she was kylo ren, of all people, it felt wrong.) but now that she'd planted the thought in his mind ... she wasn't wrong. she hurt him over and over, why couldn't he strike back? ]
You don't know what I want.
[ he only realizes the mistake he made after the words leave his mouth. even if she didn't, he could find out. that was practically an invitation. ]
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maybe what he really hates is that she isn't wrong. he hadn't considered it before, not really. in the fight or flight situation, his mind took flight every time. (and maybe some of it was because she was a woman. even if she was kylo ren, of all people, it felt wrong.) but now that she'd planted the thought in his mind ... she wasn't wrong. she hurt him over and over, why couldn't he strike back? ]
You don't know what I want.
[ he only realizes the mistake he made after the words leave his mouth. even if she didn't, he could find out. that was practically an invitation. ]