[ he doesn't have a name. he doesn't want to keep hearing it. it feels like it almost could be his, but it's not allowed to be, and the latter scares him enough to keep it in check. this entire situation is a Problem.
his breathing improves uhh moderately? i mean he's trying to put in the effort on it, he's sort of on board with not losing his shit in here, but half the time his body's just like "fuck you and your oxygen". work in progress. he will probably get there. ]
I'm not-- I have to go back, I can't--
[ you will always be brought back to where you belong.
he knows that. he just lined himself up for reconditioning again without wondering why he was doing it. if the first order doesn't go ahead and write him off to be shot on sight, he's gonna have to do it all over again. he's not gonna be anything by the time they're done with him.
it doesn't matter where he goes. it doesn't matter who he's with. it doesn't matter what he wants. it doesn't matter. he'll always end up in the same place. ]
I'm gonna have to go back.
[ and look maybe his voice breaks a little tiny bit because some part of him keeps saying "i don't want to" anyway, but SHUT YOUR FUCK, POE LASTNAME. SHUT ALL OF THEM. ]
i was wrong when i keyworded this icon. i played myself
his breathing improves uhh moderately? i mean he's trying to put in the effort on it, he's sort of on board with not losing his shit in here, but half the time his body's just like "fuck you and your oxygen". work in progress. he will probably get there. ]
I'm not-- I have to go back, I can't--
[ you will always be brought back to where you belong.
he knows that. he just lined himself up for reconditioning again without wondering why he was doing it. if the first order doesn't go ahead and write him off to be shot on sight, he's gonna have to do it all over again. he's not gonna be anything by the time they're done with him.
it doesn't matter where he goes. it doesn't matter who he's with. it doesn't matter what he wants. it doesn't matter. he'll always end up in the same place. ]
I'm gonna have to go back.
[ and look maybe his voice breaks a little tiny bit because some part of him keeps saying "i don't want to" anyway, but SHUT YOUR FUCK, POE LASTNAME. SHUT ALL OF THEM. ]