[ if she reached out with the force, she could feel the loneliness bleeding out of him, too. poe felt burdened with guilt and responsibility that threatened to drown him every day. trying to lighten the load with finn hadn't worked in the way he'd been hoping it would when he made him co-general. the space between them had grown into an ocean. there was too much darkness in his depths, things that he wasn't sure finn could understand. repeatedly leading good people — his friends — into massacres. that guilt was his alone.
maybe that was why he wouldn't let himself give up on her. if he could save rey, if he could do this one thing, maybe he could redeem himself. (or maybe he was hoping they were still the same at heart and she could connect to him in a way that finn couldn't.) ]
Rey!
[ but now the ground is falling apart beneath them, so he'll have to return to that train of thought at a later time. he scrambles for purchase on the floor as they slide and tries to grab for her at the same time -- in the end succeeding at nothing. oh, to be yeeted into the yeet hole. ]
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maybe that was why he wouldn't let himself give up on her. if he could save rey, if he could do this one thing, maybe he could redeem himself. (or maybe he was hoping they were still the same at heart and she could connect to him in a way that finn couldn't.) ]
Rey!
[ but now the ground is falling apart beneath them, so he'll have to return to that train of thought at a later time. he scrambles for purchase on the floor as they slide and tries to grab for her at the same time -- in the end succeeding at nothing. oh, to be yeeted into the yeet hole. ]