[ he points right at poe's dumb handsome face, as if to say THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT I FUCKING MEAN THAT IS THE STUPID LOOK YOU HAVE AND YOURE DOING THIS ON PURPOSE. NO CHILL NO CHILL
he almost, for the sake of argument, says "yes, finn," but he can't make it actually leave his mouth. his brain refuses to allow it, so it sits in his chest like a sharp rock instead. there are so many things he can't just say out loud with his mouth. the minute he tries to own any of this-- a name, this history, this whole personhood thing, it's over. he doesn't need a logical reason to know shit! he was pressing the line by vaguely asking if he had a life. it can't be something that's his. he can't say it's something that was taken, because he was never supposed to have it anyway.
more importantly, poe is dumb. he's dumb and he's so earnest and his face is sometimes like getting punched in the face, and he's good and he's human and he kidnapped a fucking stormtrooper for sentimental reasons. and finn can't look poe in the face without feeling like maybe he should just trust him. he can't afford that. it's not fair. so guess what, he doesn't have to feel anything if he doesn't see how sincere you are! that's how it works.
in this world we shake our heads like stubborn babies instead of explaining any of our problems or figuring out how to articulate our problems. fuck you and your "youre a person and youre good and people care about you and we're gonna be fine," poe.
this can end two ways for him, and those are both with the first order. they will get him back. and when they do, death is the least terrifying option. ]
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he almost, for the sake of argument, says "yes, finn," but he can't make it actually leave his mouth. his brain refuses to allow it, so it sits in his chest like a sharp rock instead. there are so many things he can't just say out loud with his mouth. the minute he tries to own any of this-- a name, this history, this whole personhood thing, it's over. he doesn't need a logical reason to know shit! he was pressing the line by vaguely asking if he had a life. it can't be something that's his. he can't say it's something that was taken, because he was never supposed to have it anyway.
more importantly, poe is dumb. he's dumb and he's so earnest and his face is sometimes like getting punched in the face, and he's good and he's human and he kidnapped a fucking stormtrooper for sentimental reasons. and finn can't look poe in the face without feeling like maybe he should just trust him. he can't afford that. it's not fair. so guess what, he doesn't have to feel anything if he doesn't see how sincere you are! that's how it works.
in this world we shake our heads like stubborn babies instead of explaining any of our problems or figuring out how to articulate our problems. fuck you and your "youre a person and youre good and people care about you and we're gonna be fine," poe.
this can end two ways for him, and those are both with the first order. they will get him back. and when they do, death is the least terrifying option. ]