[ oh. he vaguely expected the "yeah," but the strong gay finisher surprises him. he's weirdly touched? is poe a sorcerer??
finn's face pulls some complicated bullshit again, to match the complicated bullshit his emotions start to pull on him. he sort of-- wants to apologize. like sorry you've been so kind and trying so hard this whole time, and i've been crawling out of my skin yelling at you because this isn't allowed to be a good situation. sorry it's probably gonna get you murdered right along with me?
sorry i'm not him, and even if we impossibly get out of this alive, it's a matter of time until you realize how not him i am and wash your hands of this mess, and i can't even blame you for it but that is somehow almost worse than anything else that might happen to me. even though i've only known you for like less than a day afaik. that would totally make sense to say.
finn didn't really realize how much of his brain he wanted to make stop until now. he's just kinda been taking his own brain soup crap at face value. it's not supposed to matter. wanting is never gonna be enough to make something stop hurting. god he'd love it if it would be enough just this once, though. ]
I'm not... [ he doesn't have the capacity to handle this, what does he even do with this moment in time, emotionally. holy shit. it's mildly alarming. ] There's not that much.
[ but he didn't shoot it down. curiosity trumps again 2k18. ]
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finn's face pulls some complicated bullshit again, to match the complicated bullshit his emotions start to pull on him. he sort of-- wants to apologize. like sorry you've been so kind and trying so hard this whole time, and i've been crawling out of my skin yelling at you because this isn't allowed to be a good situation. sorry it's probably gonna get you murdered right along with me?
sorry i'm not him, and even if we impossibly get out of this alive, it's a matter of time until you realize how not him i am and wash your hands of this mess, and i can't even blame you for it but that is somehow almost worse than anything else that might happen to me. even though i've only known you for like less than a day afaik. that would totally make sense to say.
finn didn't really realize how much of his brain he wanted to make stop until now. he's just kinda been taking his own brain soup crap at face value. it's not supposed to matter. wanting is never gonna be enough to make something stop hurting. god he'd love it if it would be enough just this once, though. ]
I'm not... [ he doesn't have the capacity to handle this, what does he even do with this moment in time, emotionally. holy shit. it's mildly alarming. ] There's not that much.
[ but he didn't shoot it down. curiosity trumps again 2k18. ]