[he feels it; he knows what's happening. her told her how much it broke him, the first time with kylo ren, and here she was, trying to do the same. another weakness he'd handed off to her before he ever considered the possibility of it being used against him.
the rey he knew was gone. completely and truly. he knows that now. he doesn't have to hold on to that notion anymore.]
I don't want your help! [the words come out as a growl, and he tries again to struggle against his invisible restraints.] Stop!
[he tries to press back, tries to fight it, because he's a fighter. that's who he is as a person. but 1) he's not a force user, and 2) he's already so broken. so tired. something in him had snapped, been crushed, and now he knows the dying is the only way left to get out.]
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the rey he knew was gone. completely and truly. he knows that now. he doesn't have to hold on to that notion anymore.]
I don't want your help! [the words come out as a growl, and he tries again to struggle against his invisible restraints.] Stop!
[he tries to press back, tries to fight it, because he's a fighter. that's who he is as a person. but 1) he's not a force user, and 2) he's already so broken. so tired. something in him had snapped, been crushed, and now he knows the dying is the only way left to get out.]