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[forcevisions]

What is it?

[followhim]

han solo was me

i barely remember most of what happened before kovacs killed me. i wasn't all there and i said i was han solo

[forcevisions]

You lied?

[ But Poe is a Resistance hero ?? ? ? Resistance heroes are righteous and brave and don't Do That. ]

[followhim]

i was trying to figure out how to say it! i saw you and kylo ren talking about it on the network and i knew i needed to tell you about it then he was actually THERE when you asked and

it got all messed up

i'm sorry, i didn't mean for any of that to happen. i didn't mean to lie to you

[forcevisions]

[ So he'd lied about that too -- he had seen the network post. The injured, frustrated part of her wants to hold that against him, wants to insist that he must have meant to lie to her or he wouldn't have done it. But that doesn't get her anywhere, does it? ]

Kovacs said Han Solo attacked him.
Did you?

[followhim]

i don't remember most of it. i remember feeling really angry and he was there. i think he was making fun of me. and i just got SO MAD, and i tried to take him. then i blacked out.

[forcevisions]

You should have been honest with me.

[ That's what she comes back to. She doesn't know how to feel about the fact that in addition to the murder basement inside of his mind, Poe was also hiding this. It's overwhelming on top of recognizing that he'd stood by and watched after being responsible for the grief that his dragging up Han Solo's name had caused. ]

[followhim]

i'm being honest now

i didn't know how to say it

[forcevisions]

Because you were afraid I'd be upset? No one was entirely themselves in the dream. I don't hold what you did there against you. No one should.
But what you did after that, pretending you didn't know what I was talking about, leaving me to wonder if it was really him ... That was wrong, Poe. You should have tried.

[ This she hammers home only because it seems like 'I didn't know how to say it' is a justification, something he could hide behind again. Rey isn't interested in holding the past against him, or anyone else--just in changed behavior. ]

[followhim]

i know it was wrong! i was gonna tell you, then kylo ren was there i got caught off-guard. i know i should have. that's on me

i'm sorry

[forcevisions]

[ She doesn't like that he's doubled down now on blaming his not telling her on Kylo's presence, but Rey's not gonna fight that fight. He's already sorry, and he knows it was a bad call, and that's all she wants. ]

I'm glad you told me.

[followhim]

do you still want to room with me?

[forcevisions]

Yes.
I'm not going to retract that.

[ Rey, who has been homeless, is not gonna threaten somebody with homelessness just to get them to behave how she wants ?? ? Force, Dameron. ]

[followhim]

okay. thanks

i'm not gonna let anything like that happen again

i promise

[forcevisions]

I believe you.
When do you want to move in? I don't have a spare bed. If you've been living at the safehouse, you'll need to get one.

[followhim]

whenever i get a bed, i guess. can't be that hard to find.

do we need any other furniture

[forcevisions]

Define need.

[followhim]

do we have any other furniture

[forcevisions]

I have foldable chairs. Two of them.
And a trash can.

[ Does a trash can count as furniture? ]

[followhim]

so i should find...

[ poe, who has spent the better half of his life in barracks: wait what do people who live in adult homes need to live in adult homes ]

a table?

[forcevisions]

Sure. For eating?

[ like in restaurants!!! rey didn't have one at her old apartment. just the kitchen counters. ]

[followhim]

yeah. and to put stuff on. to go with the chairs.

i can look for other stuff too. you know, to go with the kitchen. like cups

[forcevisions]

I have some cups! And dishes and two pans. Not a lot, though. We'll have to wash them often.

[followhim]

i'm on it. i'll look for anything else we might need.

it'll be good to have a place that's all our own. like i was saying before, it's been all barracks for me for a long time

[forcevisions]

I won't be in your way much. Like I said I'm used to being on my own.