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WISH LIST

★ my dark au kink:
+ being captured by the first order and subjected to reconditioning
+ trying to turn him back with the power of gay love and friendship (and possibly failing)
+ he was always a first order tie fighter pilot instead of winter soldiered
+ poe and finn first order murder squad (dynamics if they were both stormtroopers? running away together?)
+ ^ part b: the fam that gets captured and reconditioned together… stays…together…
+ Interesting Dynamics with kylo and hux from dark aus


★ finn stuff
+ what will they do after the war? romantic vacations? homesteading? sending finn's spit to space 23andme?
+ infinite escape reimagining/aus, stormpilot escape room reigning champions

★ rey stuff
+ relationship of convenience because they're both In Denial
+ sith princess rey aus where he tries to save her and/or she turns him

★ kylo stuff
+ infinite interrogating/torture room reimagining/aus
+ ^ part b: stockholm syndrome?
+ We Need to Talk about Leia


★ general
+ honestly anything regarding leia (esp processing grief post-tros)
+ talking about his sketchy spice runner past (possibly playing things taking place during that time in his life?)
+ ^ same for things taking place during academy/new republic tbh
+ i love aus. modern aus, vampire aus, a/b/o aus, let's au the entire world
+ i prefer m/m for poe but am good with most ships

kinks if ya nasty

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[followhim]

[WOW POE LOVES THE FORCE OK he trusts in the force and that's why things always work out for him. he just has a vendetta against the stupid tree.

and shara is the one poe takes after obviously. pilots are wild-ass messes: fact. basically shara is over here like this and kes is over here like this. he just wanted poe to be a sane logical person like him and he got this instead.

lesson-wise, he was going for something about being more careful while repairing and modifying things that fly, but. you know. not getting back on his bullshit is close enough. they're related.]

You're gonna help? [he raises his eyebrows. and then,] Well, I could use the moral support.

[they make it to a subway station. i was going to say it's not much to look at, but nothing is "not much to look at" by finn's standards, so. idk. weird laser turnstiles and shit. sketchy people getting the heck out of this hell level. graffiti such as "the first order sux" crossed out and then written again slightly to the left. a shitty graffiti drawing of a dick or something. ambience. ]

[bythehand]

[ what the fuck is moral support and how is he supposed to provide it. i'm kidding he knows what it is in theory, but finn totally gives poe a Look. like "wait did you sideline me within two sentences".

....... but damn if the subway station doesn't distract him from his saltiness at full capacity.

it literally flees his mind. he was basically born and gonna die in a boring holding cell as far as he remembers, this is the good stuff. it's dirty and gross and sketchy and there's dick graffiti for like 4 different species. something smells gross. there's so much going on. so much scenery flavor to absorb.

it's beautiful, in a gross way. it's beautiful because of how messy and gross and colorful it is. god finn has such low fuckin standards right now.

anyway finn has never once in his lifetime learned not to get back on his bullshit so he definitely reaches over and grabs poe's hand at some opportune point?? he doesn't even think about it At All, he just instinctively guns it for a hand. no drifting allowed, we get through the subway like otters. ]

[followhim]

[if jakku is a walmart parking lot at 3 a.m., this is waffle house parking lot at 4 a.m. but you know what? finn seems enthralled with it and it melts poe's heart. he even kind of forgets how sad it is because lost memories blah blah blah because finn seems genuinely excited about dick graffiti. he's so pure. such an angel. someday ... poe really will take him to a nice place. seriously. it's going to happen.

hand holding like otters is the way to be. he is not losing finn because what if someone walks between them and they're separated or one of them gets on the car and then the doors close before the other can get in? how would they contact each other? coruscant is a million levels and they would literally never see each other again. yikes. gonna hold on to finn's hand extra hard. gonna hold hands through the turnstiles all the way to the other side. (and what do you mean he has to pay fare for bb-8 too??? shouldn't small droids get to ride free??? what the hell is this economy.)

what were they talking about? ]

You can help, if you want. With the ship. Sometimes I say stuff without thinking.

[everything. has never thought about a word before it comes out of his mouth in his life.]

But, you know, I could teach you, and you could help. We could do it together. That'd be good, right?

[bythehand]

[ oh good thank god. he didn't want to lose poe in a subway. slipping away into the crowd weirdly doesn't even cross his mind. i mean maybe for a second but he doesn't really give it thought. if he fucked off right now he'd basically be a jewelry thief and poe might actually die. ]

Saying stuff without thinking usually means you're being honest. [ it's the anti filter. ] If you think I'd slow you down too much, it's fine. You can just tell me that up front. I can work with that.

[ one time he got criticized for his mopping it was wild probably. ]

[followhim]

No, no, I was just thinking, maybe it'd be good for you to get your hands on something. [like THIS DICK no i'm sorry forgive me.] Since the ring is helping a little bit, right? So even more physical contact would help. ... With things. Physical contact with things.

[i think at this point poe himself is aware that every thing he says sounds like innuendo but every time he tries to make it sound less like innuendo he just digs that hole even deeper.]

[bythehand]

[ WHAT IS THE TRUTH.

Speaking without thinking.

Finn already had the picture, but now he's really starting to get it. ]

I'm almost sure I know what you're saying.

[followhim]

[ finn could have warhead candy for a personality and poe would still love it.

look, if finn wants to jump straight from blowjobs to tonsil hockey, who is poe to fault him? he would never. he loves it. what's not to love about a) finn taking initiative, b) finn's tongue scraping the inside of his mouth, and c) also getting to explore finn's mouth with his own tongue. one hand presses against his back —

and then he feels the scar that has to be there from being on the wrong end of kylo ren's lightsaber. it takes him out of the moment for half a second, half a second of him just freezing up like oh heck. he hasn't even actually seen it yet during all this nudity time, but just feeling it is more than enough to remind him that he almost lost finn before he ever got to tell him anything. the fragility of life, something something.

which means he is MAKING UP FOR IT NOW. head back in the game. everything is fine. they're still making out. cool great good. his hand finds an unmarred place on finn's back so he can stop being weird about it. his other hand goes to the back of his neck like yes just stay right here.]

[followhim]

Yeah? Good.

[poe dameron is a mess who needs to be saved from himself. rip.

but hey you know what it's fine because THE NEXT TRAIN IS HERE. to save him. from himself. he's so grateful that it's here and he doesn't have to explain what that even was anymore because he is just going to pull finn by the hand onto the train like this is some saving private ryan shit. he wishes bb-8 had a leash so he could pull him along too but he doesn't. at least bb-8 is a fast rolly boi. and less of a flight risk in general.

it's a big metal train idk what you were expecting. but they have to go out into the more open area to get on so enjoy some more of that total lack of sky ig. there are seats and stuff and everything is kind of run down and grimy. i can't believe i watched half an episode of clone wars just to capture the proper aesthetic for finn. and if the coruscant transit authority is anything like irl i'm sure absolutely nothing has changed in 50+ years.]

[bythehand]

[ poe you can't just freeze during tonsil hockey and then gun it twice as hard on tonsil hockey in your effort to erase it?? please. you beautiful disaster.

as a good person and official boyfriend finn can't just be like well guess everything's cool after all. WHAT IF POE'S NOT INTO FRENCHING AND HE'S JUST MAKING HIMSELF DO IT? ok no finn trusts him to be able to say something like "no thanks, actually, not feeling it". finn trusts poe as much as he trusts rey. they're fully on-par.

but there are so many what ifs.

he's gotta disengage the tongue. he's gotta bring out the direct eye contact. it's the only way. ]

You okay?

[ finn's gonna get to touch the dick in this timeline by god. but he'll be damned if he doesn't touch base first. ]

[followhim]

[YES HE CAN WATCH HIM. talking about feelings is hard and he already did it once today!

also yes please poe would like him to touch the dick but he's too much of a gentleman to be like ALL RIGHT BUDDY NOW IT'S YOUR TURN. and the making out was nice. can't they just go back to that??? apparently not. aw geez.]

What? Yeah, I'm okay. [no not the eye contact too. well now he's gonna feel bad if he doesn't say anything. and he's not exactly the best liar anyway. due to that lack of mental filter.] I just forgot — [the whole lightsaber thing? the time you almost died??? why you were in a bacta bag for like 20 years??? red alert red alert, every single thing he can think of to say is the actual stupidest thing he's ever thought, and he's thought a lot of stupid things in his life.] I didn't think there'd be a scar there.

[nailed that just like he nailed landing on jakku. so fuckin smooth.]

[bythehand]

[ god bless your sheer work ethic tbh that's more than i could ever do. This Train Is Hella. obviously. 9/10, needs just a little more space gum.

anyway it's horrible. like objectively. the same way the station is horrible and this part of the planet is horrible and the space dennys was shady and horrible. he grew up in clean and sterile city. he guesses maybe he should think this is horrible in a more visceral active fashion? filth and chaos of the new republic, it needs something to bring order and equality, blah blah blah. he was raised on that shit. this should be awful, because they told him it would be and now he's here.

the thing is, it's different in the real world.

the planets are different than they made it sound. the people are different than they made it sound. (mostly poe. poe sort of tears open the entire universe around him as he goes, and it's equal parts terrifying and humbling.)

and he's seeing some seedy, dank shit, and it seems like this levels thing is a hot mess overall, but it still looks a lot like people just. living their lives and minding their own business to him. being people. when even the gross run down grimy aesthetic part of the experience is too good to be true on several levels 2k18.

he feels like something about realizing that isn't fair. he feels like something's shifted even though he's not even a full day out of his cell. he can't figure out what it is. but it's fine. he's got a ring in one hand and a hand in the other, and a blaster, he guesses, which makes him feel better even though he hasn't strictly needed it, and it's fine because he's going to not try to think about any of his dumb feelings. he can focus on getting his peep on and just kinda Staying Present. ]

[bythehand]

[ making out was part one of his plan. it's a two-step plan. make out, touch the dick. now it's like a two and a half step plan. ]

Oh. [ somehow this was not in the list of potential explanations that crossed his mind. in a way, that's a huge victory. that's all it is. it's far from the worst case scenario! one fear, averted. he doesn't wanna say "well. there is one." because it's pretty obvious. finn works to keep it casual. ] I forget it's there, too.

[ you know what, they can definitely push having a conversation about That Nonsense off. kylo ren showed up shirtless in tlj and ruined a million moods, he's not taking this one with him. finn is slidin his hand up a thigh, that's it. ive personally lost track of what position theyre in im just assuming he's in the clear for that landing zone. ]

Not into scars?

[ u wound him. the way his eyes are crinkling up says he is almost definitely asking that to tease poe like a jerk. ]

[followhim]

[i think they're both sitting up??? i've lost track too honestly. it's fine, they're making out, moving around, it's whateva. but yeah hand sliding up thigh should be fine in any case. poe definitely thinks it's fine. he has been waiting a long time for this. laying in the desert, dying of thirst.

BUT FIRST. you can tell he's trying to keep focus on this Serious Discussion and just ... immensely failing.]

No! No, it's fine. It just ... it doesn't hurt, does it? I don't ... wanna hurt you.

[bythehand]

[ you mean tortured by thirst. relatable.

poe would go and say something really... poe like that. honestly. he just laid on the floor on his back for a whole gay conversation. bless this beautiful pilot.

finn's never had someone be so flagrantly gentle about him so frequently in his entire life. and it's only been like a week or something. even rey hit him with a big stick the first time they met?? poe is in his own league. ]

It's fine. Promise. Pretty sure that's the last thing you need to worry about doing.

[ shit, finn loves him.

finn lets his hand get to home base on The D, finally. he gives it a couple of really slow pumps, like he's just angling to get a metaphorical feel for this whole setup. the reality is mostly that he's never gotten to do this for someone before and he thinks he's gonna be a fan of getting to do it. some life experiences you gotta savor. ]

[followhim]

[poe is still holding his hand like they're otters who got lost and ended up drifting down some whitewater rapids — more for his own sake than finn's. it's not even actually that crowded. finn's hand is just his own ring of keeping in touch with reality right now.

anyway, he leads them towards the back of the car, so he can get a look at the map. make sure they're on the right track, figure out where they need to get off. he remembers the level number and that's about as far as he got in that part of the plan.]

Uh, so ... 1782. That's where we're going. Wanna sit? It's gonna be awhile. [there's a small monitor on the wall that displays the next level the train stopping at. guess where they are. guess where they're going now. it's like, level 12.]

[bythehand]

[ handholding is a vital part of keeping people in the new trilogy from falling into pits of dissociation and despair.

there are so many levels and they are so far down, what the fuck. finn's eyebrows shoot up for a second. ]

Yeah. Sure. Since we've got time to kill.

[ even he isn't stubborn enough to insist on standing for like 1700 more stops. even in this stage of his life, where he's a shambles of disasters barely holding together and sometimes wanting to implode, he is not that wantonly self-destructive. he has his limits. sitting down is the dream rn. ]

You come here much?

[followhim]

[just gonna sit the heck down on one of these grimy seats then. bb-8 rolls around in the aisle beside them, but there's lots of space so he can move if anyone actually needs to get by. his grip on finn's hand ... becomes slightly less of a deathgrip, but he's still not letting go. handholding is all these new trilogy kids have, ok. they need it.

he snorts. so close to a laugh, and yet not.]

No. Not this far down. [at this point i would like to note that clone wars did this same fuckin plot of hiding in the coruscant underworld and ahsoka only went to like level 1300something and it was sketchtown extreme. poe dameron is the most extra person in the world incapable of doing anything besides the most.] There are some New Republic bases on the upper levels. And it's a good place to ... [how can he talk about his impure life to a beautiful angel like finn lastname.] uh. Have drinks. Get wild.

[followhim]

[gklsfdhjk fucking TORTURED BY THIRST. yep. accurate.

also: wow finn you're about to touch his dick don't bring things like logic into this. there were much more dramatic, much more gay things he could have said if he were not so close to quenching his thirst but that was what came out instead. fuckery.

he moves very quickly from being concerned to kind of wanting to laugh to gasping sharply. does he ... should he help him? no, he's fine. starting out slow is nice. get a nice, anticipatory build going.]

[bythehand]

[ god please don't offer to help him with your own handjob he will let you both die of thirst you will sleep on the space couch. this is a good dick and he wants to cherish it. he wants to thrive on this lack of personal space. ]

One of these days we'll get breathing room and some time to kill. [ well can't cherish forever. he'll pick up the pace. ] And you're gonna help me learn to do everything you like. I wanna know it.

[ he's not about to half-ass this shit fam. first day with proper privacy, school goes into session. he will master all the poe elements. he will personally learn to remove the brain from that bod like it's his job. ]

[followhim]

[well if his goal is brain removal he is off to a strong start. blood that could be in his head helping things like thought and listening comprehension has been reallocated elsewhere. why is finn still trying to have a conversation at a time like this???? he sounds like the charlie brown teacher. something about learning things. poe nods his head quickly like yep sure whatever you want honey. could've been "you're gonna help me learn to use a bowcaster" for all he knows but he sure did just vaguely agree to it.

his breathing is more like gasping, like he is trying very hard to maintain a handle on this situation and not start dramatic moaning over a handjob but there's a sliver of his voice caught at the back of his gasps, like that is in fact exactly what he's about to do.]

[bythehand]

[ finn finds this utter lack of comprehension and the way poe's breaths catch to be both gratifying and hot. it's a get poe to agree with him life hack that lbr he will never seriously use as a life hack, he's a good bean. plus he's already learning. words are useless when the handjob is in motion. maybe it's more of a foreplay move. maybe poe isn't into words. but finn can workshop his own idle "day off for extensive dickings" agenda until next time it comes up.

anyway every day with poe, finn discovers more of his aesthetic. poe right now is peak aesthetic. if he weren't tapped out he would be valiantly rising to this occasion. he opts into the occasional wrist twist to keep things fresh.

cargo bay who??? finn doesn't know her. this is a gays only event, of wanting to see what poe's face does every step of the way. he is tunnel vision scoped in on that. what's the point being serious about stuff all the time if he can't shift some intense focus into nice occasions too? ]

[followhim]

[poe has told many of his gay penthouse forum letter fantasies to bb-8, who also functions as his diary and keeper of secrets in addition to being a standard astromech droid. but he never thought it was gonna go down like this, in the falcon's cargo bay, getting a handjob from the moon of his life, his sun and stars.

he is failing his attempts to not moan. his face is kind of flushed, kind of sweaty, kind of watching finn because he's so beautiful but also trying not to look at him too directly because he's staring at him and it's honestly like staring into a sun. he's so intense. good thing "so intense" is his kink.

annnnd that's why honestly it doesn't take that long to come. he takes a little longer than finn because he's built up more stamina in general, but he's been tortured by thirst which is now being quenched. and also, idk if you know this, but finn is everything. there's a shiver that starts small, then jolts through him like electricity. his hips buck once and then

well. this is an unlisted reason why he was like nah finn please come in my mouth. jizz is messy and now it's everywhere.

but ask him now much he cares right now. just ask. none zero percent. he flops from sitting back into laying down with a satisfied sigh.]

[bythehand]

[ he could probably hold finn's hand for twenty years and finn would only be against it during peak meltdown season. right now it's nice. it's like having someone.

... he thinks, even though poe will basically be there for him until the heat death of the universe? he actively has someone that cares? whatevs. i just can't believe poe planned to come here exclusively to brag about doing the Most Level. ]

What, do you get more wild? [ BULLSHIT HOW MUCH MORE WILD THAN THIS DAY COULD ANYONE GET ]

[bythehand]

[ this is so worth watching in motion. like, he could actively watch poe fall apart a little all day, every day. and if he hadn't just gotten on board with this rebellion and its quest to pvp the first order out of existence, he'd suggest vacationing in a nice beach house for a while, where he could stare at poe's face while they basically bang it out.

poetic and romantic things like that. no need to worry about planning the honeymoon, poe, finn just did it.

he really didn't think ahead to the mess factor though, no. finn is down to lick off whatever got on his hand, as matter-of-factly as a person can, but he is not here for tongue bath duty so poe will have to perish. ]

Can't stay down there forever.

[ he says like he's not moving to lay down next to poe anyway. i think these two are more impulse than man. ]

[followhim]

[look poe is up for this beach house sex vacation thing just as soon as the first order is gone. he has priorities. the beach house would be pretty high up on the list tho. as in literally second after destroying the first order. just gonna blow up the rest of the supremacy then turn around and go to beach house planet. he's ready.

however, at the moment: finn licking his hand off is the absolute hottest thing he's ever seen. he's so fuckstruck. they're going to get caught in an endless feedback loop of just being enamored by the other existing. ]

Oh yeah? Watch me. [once finn is next to him, he lazily reaches over to cover finn's face with his hand. yeah take that. see how you like it. he has no intention of moving any time soon. also: ur not wrong.]