[ that's what he was aiming for. he doesn't know how else he could have gotten his point across and made sure it stuck. he's getting what he wanted. it's lashing out and finally making contact, feeling like maybe poe gets it.
it doesn't feel right. no matter what he's done or said in this whole mess, he hasn't felt like he's doing it right. too big to fit into one thing, not enough to fill up another.
it shouldn't hurt when he's the one who's doing this.
it hurts anyway.
that tracks with his life experience so far.
finn leaves.
he heads out into the junkyard to have his own crying and/or panic attack combo meal, wherein he... picks a direction and Goes In It. for a couple of days. maybe three. he's not paying attention. he's just like, there, and presumably doing things or going places because he'll occasionally remember that he exists and he won't be in the same place he was?
just like a nice continual stream of consciousness montage of alternating fear and detachment, as one does. sometimes trying to sort out his own personal timeline around holes that won't patch.
he finds his way a few levels up.
that character development's gonna swing back in the next tag bc i feel like it'll be too tl;dr to add onto this, so like. how's poe's montage. how's bb-8's rat army. i like to think they both stare dramatically at something while the camera cross-fades at some point, logistically. my name is dani, i shitpost to cover my sad rp feelings. ]
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it doesn't feel right. no matter what he's done or said in this whole mess, he hasn't felt like he's doing it right. too big to fit into one thing, not enough to fill up another.
it shouldn't hurt when he's the one who's doing this.
it hurts anyway.
that tracks with his life experience so far.
finn leaves.
he heads out into the junkyard to have his own crying and/or panic attack combo meal, wherein he... picks a direction and Goes In It. for a couple of days. maybe three. he's not paying attention. he's just like, there, and presumably doing things or going places because he'll occasionally remember that he exists and he won't be in the same place he was?
just like a nice continual stream of consciousness montage of alternating fear and detachment, as one does. sometimes trying to sort out his own personal timeline around holes that won't patch.
he finds his way a few levels up.
that character development's gonna swing back in the next tag bc i feel like it'll be too tl;dr to add onto this, so like. how's poe's montage. how's bb-8's rat army. i like to think they both stare dramatically at something while the camera cross-fades at some point, logistically. my name is dani, i shitpost to cover my sad rp feelings. ]