You think seizing control of the First Order has been easy?

[ frankly if it weren't so absurd, she might be offended. ]

Fighting with you? With Finn? Poe, it's the hardest thing I've ever done.

[ and it's the truth. the gray complications of accepting that the light side wasn't always good and the dark side wasn't always wrong had been ... well, it had changed her, on some basic compositional level. it had forced her to confront so many things. to rebuild her assumptions. but around the same core fundamentals. the same values that she and poe shared. ]