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WISH LIST
★ my dark au kink:
+ being captured by the first order and subjected to reconditioning
+ trying to turn him back with the power of gay love and friendship (and possibly failing)
+ he was always a first order tie fighter pilot instead of winter soldiered
+ poe and finn first order murder squad (dynamics if they were both stormtroopers? running away together?)
+ ^ part b: the fam that gets captured and reconditioned together… stays…together…
+ Interesting Dynamics with kylo and hux from dark aus
★ finn stuff
+ what will they do after the war? romantic vacations? homesteading? sending finn's spit to space 23andme?
+ infinite escape reimagining/aus, stormpilot escape room reigning champions
★ rey stuff
+ relationship of convenience because they're both In Denial
+ sith princess rey aus where he tries to save her and/or she turns him
★ kylo stuff
+ infinite interrogating/torture room reimagining/aus
+ ^ part b: stockholm syndrome?
+ We Need to Talk about Leia
★ general
+ honestly anything regarding leia (esp processing grief post-tros)
+ talking about his sketchy spice runner past (possibly playing things taking place during that time in his life?)
+ ^ same for things taking place during academy/new republic tbh
+ i love aus. modern aus, vampire aus, a/b/o aus, let's au the entire world
+ i prefer m/m for poe but am good with most ships
kinks if ya nasty
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it does. he loves it for that. there's a fine line to walk between being an adrenaline junkie and an anxious wreck, and the two of them walk it so well. at least poe had fun. as long as neither of them is in mortal danger, finn can give a lot a pass for the sake of getting to see poe have fun. ]
That's one way to do it. [ finn, being cool, commands his knees to stop feeling liquidy long enough to make a break for freedom. a casual break. not a desperate sad AU break. ] How about you introduce me to some of these old scrap piles before we get started?
[ finn? shoddily try to put off meeting the bae's father while impostors syndrome rears its ugly head? absolutely. ]
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and he gets to show finn all of it! still not over that. his soft gay heart is mumbling about how someday this could be all theirs. finn could stay forever, just like mulan's grandma foretold. (then again, he couldn't stand the thought of being grounded, even if his hypothetical peacetime future. but the ranch could be their home base instead of just his.)
he should probably stop doodling hearts in his brain notebook and use his voice. he's out, finn's out, bb-8's out, they're doing a jaunty walk through the yard. he will absolutely make finn meet his dad, but for the moment he is all too happy to stop in front of one of his mechanical equivalents of a nailed it cake. ]
This is... [ he squints. what is it again? ] I juryrigged a podracer engine to a koyo picker. There was gonna be a meteor shower, and I wanted to finish my chores faster so I could go see it. It worked.
[ he laughs. what an innocent time. if he pretends he didn't singe the dumb force tree in the process. ]
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from all he's learned, definitely a pilot thing. gotta go fast gotta get the adrenaline. gotta try to make it look cool.
this is a nice place in finn's opinion already. he did his battle of yavin history lesson stuff a million years ago, but rolling up to yavin iv with poe is obviously a different and better experience. even when they're technically here on business. ]
Is that a good piloting thing or just good luck?
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[ yep. a seasoned veteran at the ripe old age of 32. in shounen anime years, he's a wise old man. he raps against the half-farm equipment, half-podracer monstrosity with his fist. it rattles a little. ]
One of the trees didn't make it, though. My dad made me nurse it back to health. It's a Force tree, supposedly. Looked like any other tree to me.
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he also has an internal moment where he's going "sure, i tell solo we'll ~use the force~ on starkiller and that's not how it works, but some random-ass tree on yavin iv just Has It and that's kosher." (rey who is reading jedi books rn could also tell you that's not how it works re: trying to make han less mad about not having those shield codes, finn.)
it's a shorter moment than that makes it sound like. he is deeply and personally offended by the galaxy. he's offended by it every other day anyway. ]
You never made your dad sound like the lying type, so.
[ maybe it's a real thing? or maybe it's a lie. no judgement. he doesn't know how parents do, but "oh it turns out this thing you damaged was actually very special and there will be special consequences" sounds relatable. ]
Guess it's a magic tree.
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And it is... I guess. Never seen it act magical, though.
[ poe: the force is so magical and cool i can't believe we're all part of it and jedi are superheroes
kes dameron: go to your room, you're gonna nurse this tree back to health to teach you lesson
baby poe: THE FORCE TREE IS STUPID AND I HATE IT I HOPE IT BURNS IN HELL ]
Figure maybe it would've used some of that Force to heal itself. [ isn't that how the force works? ] You ever take care of a tree?
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No. [ that would've been wild, though. it's funnier to try to imagine it than not. plus now he kind of wants to hear poe's salty deets. he looks in the direction of the nearest random tree for assistance. ] It doesn't seem like there'd be much you can do with one. Force or not.
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Yeah, it's... [ he steps over to the nearest tree, which isn't incredibly far, and sort of nudges it with his foot. ] When they get burnt, you gotta water it all the time. To keep the roots hydrated so it can heal. And wrap up the burnt parts. Kinda like a person. [ he gestures vaguely at the tree. ] It's not this tree, though. [ and then he kind of laughs, because he's not fuckin 13 or however old anymore. ] Man, I hated that tree.
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finn likes to hear fun youth stories and facts about interests and stuff anyway. he just also fantasizes about sharing a homestead with poe sometimes. they go see new planets and hang out with rey and come home and cook shitty eggs, and maybe they read on their porch.
crush stuff is intuitive like that. ]
Of course you did. Spending all that time on something that just stands still? [ he's feeling fresh and bold enough to go in for the shoulder bump. ] Doesn't sound like you.
[ if you work on a ship you can fly it, and bb-8 is a regular chatterbox. chatterball. ]
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The rest is kind of ... [ he starts leading finn around the chaos of the yard. ] I was always taking speeders and stuff people around here were gonna junk. Seeing if I could make them to go faster. [ a short laugh. ] There's a reason I'm a pilot and not a mechanic.
[ a pause. ]
Ah ... do you wanna go inside?
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that one says "stubborn," that one says "maybe unreasonably optimistic by choice," that one says "i didn't think this through very much but i've already committed..." these are things he knows about poe already, but it's different. source: it just is. ]
Sure? [ is it one fear or one nerve... probably just one nerve. finn can work with one nerve just fine. ] I mean, yeah. Yes. If that's okay. Your dad knows we're coming?
[ it occurs to him he hasn't asked how into surprise visits the damerons are. ]
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If he didn't before, he did after we landed. [ HA HA. he's ecstatic. high on being home. everything's a little bit easier when you're home. ] No, it's fine, I talked to him. Why, are you scared?
[ it's a little bit teasing, but he also maybe wants to reassure him that there's no way his dad could possibly hate him. IT'S IMPOSSIBLE, OKAY. poe refuses to believe it. if he could be like "all is forgiven if you just Do Better" after he ran away from home, he can't hold a grudge against a stormtrooper who defected. those are just cold hard facts.
(he's not nervous or anything either YOU BAKA.) ]
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finn, of course, unraveled only the worst possible scenarios to come out of this. his finest form yet. he stuck the disaster landing.
but it turns out it was fine all along and poe called ahead. crisis... averted? ]
No, I was asking a question! I asked, asking doesn't mean I'm scared, it means I asked. I have manners. [ wow, OBVIOUSLY?
he flexes his fingers like a cool not-nervous person. clears his throat. immediately gives up. ]
Look, I haven't met a lot of parents. The Resistance isn't- [ GESTURE??? ] -full of parents.
[ the ragtag 90% "my family was killed and my planet was terrorized" army??? not a lot of family groups? go figure. ]
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[ he shrugs a little. he may have forced other people to bring their parents out of retirement to fight for the resistance (cough snap's stepdad wedge antilles) but he sure did not include his own dad. maybe kes hurt his leg and is mulan's dad. maybe he didn't want to ask because he's an understandably selfish gremlin??? unsolved mysteries. ]
Look, he's... my dad is the best person I know. There are times I thought he'd never forgive me and he still did, you know? I know it's because he's my dad, but it doesn't not... mean anything. He's gonna like you. I know he is.
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finn makes a face. it's a rare day when he doesn't make a face, because he is dramatic.
han solo was so easy... he just constantly argued with and judged him, which han probably missed having in his daily life after packing up a bindle and going back to his family-free depression mode. finn was in peak stressed form. no room for hero worship or thinking about his choices.
right now it's like, at all costs he must not approach this man like he would approach han solo. this is a parent parent. a parent in the parent position. not like a fellow soldier in the trenches becoming a friend who also happens to be older and have kids. a person poe always talks about as being a good and kind and wise person and a great dad.
someone... who deserves manners. ]
I'll settle for not not liking me. [ neutral is still in the safety zone. he can have a sustainable farm with poe and their droid children in his fantasies if his imaginary father in law is ambivalent.
finn gives poe's shoulder a squeeze. the intricate rituals... it occurred to him that he might be infecting poe with anxieties over a simple human interaction. ]
Even if he does have a problem, it's okay. Okay? I'm not gonna take it personally.
[ he doesn't want poe to worry that he'll think kes dameron is a jerk if he ends up going "i kinda don't want an ex-stormtrooper on my couch."
when someone has beef with him when they hear where he's from, it's usually just that they have a larger and more complex beef with the first order. which is a beef that finn also has. realistically, the hostile part doesn't usually last long before they're all doing epic handshakes about how much fascists suck.
it's never been an actual personal thing.
he actually kinda feels better reminding himself of that.
if he hadn't skipped his homework and had read all the sequel trilogy supplementary material, of course, he'd know that kes is a scholar and a saint and all this worrying has been for nothing. ]
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He won't have a problem. And if he does, I'll take it personally.
[ he WILL throw down with his dad over his uh... friend... who he likes a lot. his super friendly friend. (can't believe there aren't any spare beds in the house so they'll have to share his bed.) ]
It'll be fine. We're gonna have dinner, maybe spend the night, then grab supplies in the morning. You can handle a dinner, right?
[ if things go wrong, they can sleep on the falcon honestly. poe will make up some excuse about being sick. he is trying to mastermind every bandersnatch option at this dinner. it all depends on two of the most important people in his life getting along. ]
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it's gonna be anticlimactic.
it also hasn't occurred to finn yet that he'll get to snoop around poe's old room and ask him about the stuff on his desk or whatever. he got to the junky yard ships and they were already so full of flavor. ]
Yes, I can handle a dinner. [ he really is giving this every ounce of meet-the-boyfriend's-parents energy that he can muster. dumb. he gives himself a mental peptalk.
the mental peptalk is really only him telling himself things like "don't be a baby" or "get that shit on a leash already" (to paraphrase). he's put up with worse than dinner with someone poe swears by being really great. he's buddies with rose now, and she hated his guts for 90% of tlj while they were crammed into shuttles together. anything is possible.
and maybe most importantly, he doesn't want poe to think he's being a baby. he will not find the end of the patience line on this specific occasion. he can and he will handle a dinner. ]
Come on.
[ when in doubt, start walking before you can psych yourself out of it. which might be the philosophy behind every choice ever made in star wars canon. ]
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[ it's just that brand of amused teasing that poe thrives on. he picks up his own pace a little bit to catch up and then let finn into casa de dameron. it's... a (ranch)house that looks much cleaner than one might anticipate, given that poe tends to be a messy garbage gremlin. as it turns out, the same does not apply to kes.
as poe leads the way, it's with grace and ease that makes it seem like he was only gone a day instead of months or more on end. ]
Dad? [ no response. ] He must be out in the woods. He'll be around soon. Can't miss the ruckus we made.
[ on that note, he grabs a fruit from a fruit bowl on the kitchen counter.] Want an orange?