open post

[followhim]

☒ action ☒ text ☒ picture prompts ☒ overflow ☒ etc

WISH LIST

★ my dark au kink:
+ being captured by the first order and subjected to reconditioning
+ trying to turn him back with the power of gay love and friendship (and possibly failing)
+ he was always a first order tie fighter pilot instead of winter soldiered
+ poe and finn first order murder squad (dynamics if they were both stormtroopers? running away together?)
+ ^ part b: the fam that gets captured and reconditioned together… stays…together…
+ Interesting Dynamics with kylo and hux from dark aus


★ finn stuff
+ what will they do after the war? romantic vacations? homesteading? sending finn's spit to space 23andme?
+ infinite escape reimagining/aus, stormpilot escape room reigning champions

★ rey stuff
+ relationship of convenience because they're both In Denial
+ sith princess rey aus where he tries to save her and/or she turns him

★ kylo stuff
+ infinite interrogating/torture room reimagining/aus
+ ^ part b: stockholm syndrome?
+ We Need to Talk about Leia


★ general
+ honestly anything regarding leia (esp processing grief post-tros)
+ talking about his sketchy spice runner past (possibly playing things taking place during that time in his life?)
+ ^ same for things taking place during academy/new republic tbh
+ i love aus. modern aus, vampire aus, a/b/o aus, let's au the entire world
+ i prefer m/m for poe but am good with most ships

kinks if ya nasty

Comments

[followhim]

[ he shakes his head, unable or unwilling to think about the circumstances that led him to be here. why had he tried so hard? been so angry? wasted so much time and energy? it was easier to just not. don't look back.

he turns his attention back to finn, running his fingers down the length of his arm before taking his hand. like if they weren't touching, he might disappear. ]

Well, you know, I was tired of being on the losing side. How much do you have to lose before you realize there's no point to it? For me, everything, I guess. I never have known when to quit. But it's okay, you know? Because I have you. And the three of us are gonna fix everything.

[ his tone is so removed and casual. it's ... not good. this is not poe dameron. ]

[forcevisions]

[ this cavalier dismissal curdles her blood — it's not the guilt she had been feeling before. this is something else. dread? yes. this is recognition of the fact that finn, too, will spot it for what it is, and recognize that poe is too laissez-faire about this whole thing. ]

We're going to build a brighter galaxy. Together.

[ she believes that. her conviction, at least, is powerful. powerful enough that she would strip poe of much of his self to do it. what else would be gone? what else would be different because of what she had done?

there's nothing productive down that road, so rey abandons it as she has always done with fruitless yearning. they have a purpose. that's worth more. ]

My hope was that we could show Poe around and get him comfortable.

[militarized]

[He notices, god he notices, and something goes cold in the pit of his stomach, freezing his insides and slowly spreading until he can barely move, speak or think. He just looks at the other man, trying to read his expression, trying to find some indication that he doesn't actually believe what he's saying, that he's just saying it for the sake of keeping the peace in this moment.

Finn isn't sure he sees it.

His eyes flick between Poe and Rey as he swallows back his dread, already created by the fact that Poe was here at all. Is this what he was left with? The shells of his friends, shadows of who they both used to be?

He grips Poe's hand tighter, as if that will fix things. Somehow.]

Right. [Show him around. Get him 'comfortable.' Make the world a better place. He'll believe it when it happens. In the meantime, all he can do is try to make things better here, piece by piece, until they do something to stop him, too if he goes too far.] We wouldn't want you to get lost or something.

[followhim]

[he squeezes finn's hand in return, because he really does care about finn. that's a part of him that remains undiluted. one of very few. his love of finn and his belief in rey — but the latter is distorted. twisted around, reshaped to fit through the peg she'd been trying to shove it in. rey can save a galaxy that needed her, because it was broken and corrupt. he could help her.

both of them could help her. like before. ]

Yeah? I'm sure I'd figure it out sooner or later. I've got a good sense of direction.

[if they're not talking about anything remotely near the lane of rey's galactic discourse, it's almost like he's normal. he hits all the same beats poe dameron would have before, but ... but. there's something almost uncanny valley about it.]

[forcevisions]

[ a part of her remains reluctant to let poe out of her sight. to let finn out of her sight. they might try to escape. finn, more than poe. but if this is going to work, she'll have to eventually, and …

she knows it will hold. in her bones, she can feel it. the force telling her that this is safe and done, finally. she claps one hand on finn's arm, holding her smile. ]

I'll leave you to it, then. Come find me when you're done, and I'll show Poe his new quarters. The sooner we can get started, the better.

[militarized]

Yeah, we just need to get everyone else used to seeing you around.

[Sometimes, people were idiots, and if they saw the Resistance's best pilot just wandering around, well...

...Rey would probably destroy them, but Finn would rather avoid that kind of problem altogether. He glances over at Rey, still unsure, but if she's gonna let them go alone for a while, Finn is going to use that time to figure out Poe, to see where they stand.

To see if they have any hope left at all or if this is what he's left with, making the best of a really bad situation.]

It shouldn't take too long.

[followhim]

[poe seems ... unconcerned. so that's cool. that's his new vibe. also, he's just going to say that out loud, since he arrived to the same conclusion. ]

If anyone wanted to try anything towards me, Rey would take care of it.

[he glances over at rey too, like ah yes my best friend who's going to save the galaxy. not someone i was vehemently angry at for trying to destroy the galaxy earlier today.]

Don't worry so much. Everything's gonna be fine. [he takes his other hand, the one that isn't participating in handholding, and uses it to touch finn's face, cupping his cheek in his palm.]

[forcevisions]

[ a calm settles over rey's expression with poe's affirmation. she makes the briefest of eye contact with finn, as if to impress upon him how true that is of them both — that she would protect them, that all of this had always been to protect them — and turns to excuse herself from their company for now. ]

[militarized]

[Finn's gaze flicks to Rey and he simply nods ever so slightly in response. Out of everything, this is probably the one thing he believes fully, that Rey is trying her best to protect them.

He's just not sure if that's what's resulted in all of this in the first place.

Rey starts to leave and Finn's gaze returns to Poe, whose hand is warm against his cheek.]

I worried about you a lot. It's hard to just turn that off. [He's still worried, but he's here, and that's a start.] Come on, I'll show you around and you can rest if you want.

[followhim]

Okay. Sure. [his hand peels away from finn's face, but they're still holding hands. still otters. once rey is gone, he admits — ]

I know what you mean. I worried about you, too. I was so — I didn't know what was gonna happen to you on here. I'd make myself sick thinking about it. [he didn't think rey would kill her best friend but he hadn't thought she was gonna do all this wild shit either and yet here they were. who's to say she wouldn't have slipped up one day and accidentally force choked finn too hard or some shit???]

But we're here now, and we're okay, so I'm trying to think of that, you know? It finally feels like things are gonna be better.