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WISH LIST
★ my dark au kink:
+ being captured by the first order and subjected to reconditioning
+ trying to turn him back with the power of gay love and friendship (and possibly failing)
+ he was always a first order tie fighter pilot instead of winter soldiered
+ poe and finn first order murder squad (dynamics if they were both stormtroopers? running away together?)
+ ^ part b: the fam that gets captured and reconditioned together… stays…together…
+ Interesting Dynamics with kylo and hux from dark aus
★ finn stuff
+ what will they do after the war? romantic vacations? homesteading? sending finn's spit to space 23andme?
+ infinite escape reimagining/aus, stormpilot escape room reigning champions
★ rey stuff
+ relationship of convenience because they're both In Denial
+ sith princess rey aus where he tries to save her and/or she turns him
★ kylo stuff
+ infinite interrogating/torture room reimagining/aus
+ ^ part b: stockholm syndrome?
+ We Need to Talk about Leia
★ general
+ honestly anything regarding leia (esp processing grief post-tros)
+ talking about his sketchy spice runner past (possibly playing things taking place during that time in his life?)
+ ^ same for things taking place during academy/new republic tbh
+ i love aus. modern aus, vampire aus, a/b/o aus, let's au the entire world
+ i prefer m/m for poe but am good with most ships
kinks if ya nasty
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[ she smiles. that's the first time he's sounded like himself. it's just the surface, just the hint of it, but it's there and real. he'll come back to himself. he'll settle in, and it will be like before. ]
It's going to take all of us to hold this ship together. To keep it flying straight. Ah, here— [ she stops in front of a set of double doors. the aurebesh over them reads 'TRAINING CENTER.' it's like balamb garden ok. ] Finn should be here.
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Finn doesn't want to be here, but he also doesn't want to leave. Foolishly, he's still clinging to the idea that, if he sticks around long enough, he'll figure out how to snap Rey out of all of this. He still thinks the Resistance will show up to save the day.
He doesn't know the war is already over, hasn't accepted that it already is.
He remembers when Rey went down to try and finish things, though. She'd promised to let Poe live; it was the one thing that Finn couldn't live with, if he died and left him to this task all by himself. Try as he might, he couldn't best Kylo Ren in combat, and he couldn't bring himself to try and hurt Rey, as if she would even let him.
So as he waits, he's given himself the one task that doesn't weight heavy on his conscious; he's teaching the younger troopers-in-training some self-defense.
A small group of kids stand opposite him, them with a makeshift practice blade, and him with a plastic shield to block. He lets them come at him, over and over, pushing aside their attacks with ease, yelling orders and attack as they do their best to follow along.
It's not wrong to teach a bunch of kids how to defend themselves, right?]
Come on! Again!
[He doesn't even hear them coming in or crossing the distance toward him.]
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Finn! Buddy! [welcome to your big gay hug.] I'm so — I didn't think I'd — I missed you.
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once, she had felt some chagrin, recognizing that she would never be to finn what poe was. but what they had, that was good too. different, but still good.
now it too had become a tool, a circumstance for her to weigh and consider. that was thrawn's influence. ]
We found him on Crait.
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Big gay hug returned.
It's a relief, seeing him. But there's mixed emotions there, because he knows that if Poe is here, it's probably over. He wouldn't have come quietly.]
I missed you too.
[His grip is tight and he doesn't seem to even want to let go, but he looks at Rey over Poe's shoulder, meeting her gaze.]
Thank you.
[For not letting him die.]
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finn's words — clearly not directed at him — make him glance back at rey. confused for a second, but then not. he gets it. ]
You kept me alive because Finn asked you to.
[ not an accusation, like it might have been before. just a question disguised as a statement.
(before, he might have taken it as a sign that there was still some good in her. but he knows she needed a general, so it was probably coincidentally in line with what she'd wanted all along. recruiting him and keeping finn in line.) ]
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so when poe speaks up, she's ready for it. ]
Not only.
[ and it's not a lie — she of course cared for him as well. that could not go ignored. ]
But … [ she smiles. ] It's good to see the two of you happy. [ it's all she wants — this, what they have together, but made possible the galaxy wide. ]
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Because, for just a moment, it almost felt like it used to be.
And then he remembers where they are.
He finally pulls back from the hug, turning his head towards the kids to yell-]
You're dismissed. Head back to your rooms and wait for further instructions.
[They all start to head off without another word, and he turns back to Poe, giving him his full attention.]
I didn't think she'd get you to agree to come.
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he turns his attention back to finn, running his fingers down the length of his arm before taking his hand. like if they weren't touching, he might disappear. ]
Well, you know, I was tired of being on the losing side. How much do you have to lose before you realize there's no point to it? For me, everything, I guess. I never have known when to quit. But it's okay, you know? Because I have you. And the three of us are gonna fix everything.
[ his tone is so removed and casual. it's ... not good. this is not poe dameron. ]
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We're going to build a brighter galaxy. Together.
[ she believes that. her conviction, at least, is powerful. powerful enough that she would strip poe of much of his self to do it. what else would be gone? what else would be different because of what she had done?
there's nothing productive down that road, so rey abandons it as she has always done with fruitless yearning. they have a purpose. that's worth more. ]
My hope was that we could show Poe around and get him comfortable.
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Finn isn't sure he sees it.
His eyes flick between Poe and Rey as he swallows back his dread, already created by the fact that Poe was here at all. Is this what he was left with? The shells of his friends, shadows of who they both used to be?
He grips Poe's hand tighter, as if that will fix things. Somehow.]
Right. [Show him around. Get him 'comfortable.' Make the world a better place. He'll believe it when it happens. In the meantime, all he can do is try to make things better here, piece by piece, until they do something to stop him, too if he goes too far.] We wouldn't want you to get lost or something.
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both of them could help her. like before. ]
Yeah? I'm sure I'd figure it out sooner or later. I've got a good sense of direction.
[if they're not talking about anything remotely near the lane of rey's galactic discourse, it's almost like he's normal. he hits all the same beats poe dameron would have before, but ... but. there's something almost uncanny valley about it.]
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she knows it will hold. in her bones, she can feel it. the force telling her that this is safe and done, finally. she claps one hand on finn's arm, holding her smile. ]
I'll leave you to it, then. Come find me when you're done, and I'll show Poe his new quarters. The sooner we can get started, the better.
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[Sometimes, people were idiots, and if they saw the Resistance's best pilot just wandering around, well...
...Rey would probably destroy them, but Finn would rather avoid that kind of problem altogether. He glances over at Rey, still unsure, but if she's gonna let them go alone for a while, Finn is going to use that time to figure out Poe, to see where they stand.
To see if they have any hope left at all or if this is what he's left with, making the best of a really bad situation.]
It shouldn't take too long.
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If anyone wanted to try anything towards me, Rey would take care of it.
[he glances over at rey too, like ah yes my best friend who's going to save the galaxy. not someone i was vehemently angry at for trying to destroy the galaxy earlier today.]
Don't worry so much. Everything's gonna be fine. [he takes his other hand, the one that isn't participating in handholding, and uses it to touch finn's face, cupping his cheek in his palm.]
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He's just not sure if that's what's resulted in all of this in the first place.
Rey starts to leave and Finn's gaze returns to Poe, whose hand is warm against his cheek.]
I worried about you a lot. It's hard to just turn that off. [He's still worried, but he's here, and that's a start.] Come on, I'll show you around and you can rest if you want.
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I know what you mean. I worried about you, too. I was so — I didn't know what was gonna happen to you on here. I'd make myself sick thinking about it. [he didn't think rey would kill her best friend but he hadn't thought she was gonna do all this wild shit either and yet here they were. who's to say she wouldn't have slipped up one day and accidentally force choked finn too hard or some shit???]
But we're here now, and we're okay, so I'm trying to think of that, you know? It finally feels like things are gonna be better.