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WISH LIST

★ my dark au kink:
+ being captured by the first order and subjected to reconditioning
+ trying to turn him back with the power of gay love and friendship (and possibly failing)
+ he was always a first order tie fighter pilot instead of winter soldiered
+ poe and finn first order murder squad (dynamics if they were both stormtroopers? running away together?)
+ ^ part b: the fam that gets captured and reconditioned together… stays…together…
+ Interesting Dynamics with kylo and hux from dark aus


★ finn stuff
+ what will they do after the war? romantic vacations? homesteading? sending finn's spit to space 23andme?
+ infinite escape reimagining/aus, stormpilot escape room reigning champions

★ rey stuff
+ relationship of convenience because they're both In Denial
+ sith princess rey aus where he tries to save her and/or she turns him

★ kylo stuff
+ infinite interrogating/torture room reimagining/aus
+ ^ part b: stockholm syndrome?
+ We Need to Talk about Leia


★ general
+ honestly anything regarding leia (esp processing grief post-tros)
+ talking about his sketchy spice runner past (possibly playing things taking place during that time in his life?)
+ ^ same for things taking place during academy/new republic tbh
+ i love aus. modern aus, vampire aus, a/b/o aus, let's au the entire world
+ i prefer m/m for poe but am good with most ships

kinks if ya nasty

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[bythehand]

[ love and bonds are a hell of a drug. thinking is overrated, and can be worked up to with time. sometimes you wanna think and then you're like, but consider how great this person smells what if i just attach myself to them forever.

so. this line of conversation is more of poe being poe, hopefully, he thinks. because poe is good and smart and the reason human faces were invented it's nbd. it doesn't sound like a breaking up lead-in.

oh. wait, now finn has to also come up with coherent words that express what he's trying to say. he's great at monologues with gravitas and last-ditch cave speeches, how the hell does he. how does he get to "you looked at me like no one ever had" vol. 2. it's all backfired horribly. ]

It wasn't great timing. Or a great place. Definitely didn't plan for it. [ he probably wouldn't have thought to... offer or ask or whatever the protocol is. when he considers everything. he spent his life with the implicit understanding that this wasn't a thing he'd get or want to find.

finn finds his way to his actual point, tentative: ] I wanted it, though.

[ issue the second: the problem with wanting to make sure someone doesn't feel trapped is that you have to show them the open door, or as much of an open door as someone can get out of this. ]

I thought maybe you... once you were thinking again. I didn't know if you really wanted to-- if you still would. I mean. It's okay if you don't.

[ factually it's not okay at all and he feels like there's probably no actual way to cut this bad boy off now that it's been in motion. but finn also digs that autonomy and choice flavor with the dial turned all the way up, they've got that in common.

this would probably be a good time to step back as like a symbolic gesture of the okayness he's pretending he would have, but he a thousand percent does not do it. he's not even gonna act like he can. ]

[followhim]

No, no. I do. I still want it. I just didn't want — [you to feel like you had to want it. even though he doesn't have any clue how they'd undo it if one of them wasn't down to ride or die, like????? he didn't expect to get himself into this mess. he just wanted to be a pilot and resistance it up and live his life. but now he's got an omega so. that's a thing. but you know what, it's fine because AT LEAST THEY TALKED ABOUT IT.] — I wanted to make sure.

[he brushes with a similar thought. like oh, maybe i should like … not hug finn with this intense deathgrip until we both die. his hands could touch other parts of finn???? like his amazing face or they could hold hands like otters??? but get this. no. this is the holding pattern they're locked in. maybe they should also not be in the hallway, but he's not ready to move with his feet, either.]

Whenever you're not around, I don't … I don't feel okay. I don't feel right anymore. Like something's missing. Do you feel like that?

[bythehand]

[ they've got like some whole number of days to make up for in contact and smelling. gotta get the initial burst out of the way, obviously. i like how it vaguely sounds like they weren't looking for anything in their lives only to wind up with like a pet cat or something.

if traffic wants through this hallway it will have to make a big stink about needing to get through. unless someone is actively dying, finn would probably still take his time. maybe. idk, he's a reasonable person sometimes.

it's a relief to get the confirmation. makes his shoulders relax a little, and pretty much every part of his brain that was thinking in circles about it, a lot. he either huffs or scoffs against poe's neck, which both pretty much boil down to the exact same thing in context anyway. ]

Yeah. Like I lost something. Definitely noticed that.

[followhim]

[look you know what maybe it was exactly like that. they weren't looking for anything in their lives and now they have a pet cat. it's fine. don't worry about it. also: this hallway is canceled.]

I never felt like that before.

[it was actually kind of scary? like, objectively overwhelmingly terrifying. then again that whole … wild-ass day was kind of terrifying. like, craziest of crazies. but the emotional component of finding moon of your life, your sun and stars etc and then losing them like ten minutes later?????? it was A Lot, okay. and it kept going. he's been through it. he feels like he's had his heart literally ripped out at least like five times in the last three days.]

I'm kinda ready to never feel that way again, you know?

[he can feel finn relax against him, and it drains a tension in him he didn't even know he was carrying. it's okay. he had finn and then he lost finn but now he has him again and has confirmed that they both want each other and everything is fine. it's the same kind of calm that washes over him when he's flying through a clear patch of space and he knows what he's doing because he's in that psychological flow zone and he just knows that everything is going to be okay.

everything's going to be okay.

he breathes deep, taking in finn's scent. okay. this is okay. it's home. (and as someone who actually did have a home, he doesn't even know yavin 4 anymore. yavin 4 can get fucked.)]

[bythehand]

[ yeah, that was kind of. yeah. jakku alone was a whole damn trip. and sure, maybe finn's trended more towards providing the close calls than having to suffer through them, but the escape pods getting fired on like sitting ducks is still sitting especially fresh in mind right now. and that just about did him in, personally.

they've both been in an awful lot of "did what i thought i had to do" positions lately. he has to figure there are only gonna be more in the future.

he'd like to never feel that way again, either. war is dumb, it messes everything up. ]

Bad time to be trying to save the galaxy.

[ poe smells warm. he smells like something soft and a little messy, like a room with an unmade bed and an open window with the sun coming through.

he makes everything feel safe. and finn can think it through and know that safety isn't much of a real thing in this day and age, logically, but he can think it through and still feel safe at the same time. that's kind of a luxury he's not often afforded. ]

[followhim]

[wow why do you have to ruin his romantic statements with your realism.

it's okay, someone has to have some sense of realism in this relationship and it was never going to be poe, honestly. he's a melodramatic sap.]

Yeah. Yeah, I know.

[he does know. this is why he's fighting at all. this is what his "after the war" looks like. he knows now. it's finn. forever with finn. if that's not worth fighting for, he doesn't know what is.

and now that he knows finn isn't actually planning on going anywhere and he's had his nose pressed against finn for so long the scent is still there (like when you rub chapstick on your nose tbh), he pulls back a little bit. just enough so he can see finn's face. what a good face, tbh. amazing. revolutionary. he feels … fully capable of having more than one thought at a time. two thoughts. two thoughts at a time. this is a whole new world.]

Do you wanna … we don't have to keep standing here.

[bythehand]

[ he's new to hope as a full time gig, okay, he's trying to keep it real. join him next week while he attempts to pvp everyone in the first order personally, one at a time, to make some dreams happen.

also give him like 2 seconds to answer. he's filling a gay disaster quota. he never gets to look at how good poe's face is without having to be like "welp anyway help me defect/my friend got kidnapped/where's rey 2 electric boogaloo/anyway death is descending or whatever". poe has a great face. even his eyebrows are great. how. hallway who don't know her.

he feels like if poe dramatically kissed him on a battlefield before passing out, seriously wounded...... it would have been a way less confusing couple of seconds in general. ]

Sure. Yeah.

[ .... okay listen. don't @ him. 2 more seconds. he gets there. he has to physically shake his head a little bit but he gets there. ]

Right. Right, we should probably-- go somewhere.

[ that isn't an active hallway someone will need to get through, no matter how touching the roadblock content is. GIVE YOUR HAND TO FINN TIME TO TRY TO REMEMBER WHERE ANYTHING IS ON THIS GARBAGE VESSEL. he only spent like a day on it. ]

[followhim]

[likewise, he gets sucked into the void of the beauty that is finn's face. they can take two more seconds. or a million. infinite seconds. whichever. he can't decide if he wants to kiss him or just keep staring until he commits every inch to memory.

if he'd had a better look at this face or spent any actual amount of time with it instead of trying to save the resistance (from his own damn fuckery), he doesn't know if he would've been able to make the call. to not be the big damn hero rose was and just dive after finn instead of looking after his command. is that a problem? yes. is he aware of it? yes. is it shoved way in the back of his mind's closet because he's decided to make it a problem for another day? … also yes.

oh, right. we're doing the thing were we move and don't spend hours blocking a hallway by staring at each other. good plan. go team. he shakes his head, too. (what a mess.) ]

Right. [he kind of makes a coughing noise like that's gonna bring him to life.mp3 and make him remember where things on the ship are. and how to walk.] Right. I think there's …

[he thinks there's rooms. and places. on the ship. that's where that sentence was going. so, you know, forget it. he twines his fingers with finn's like it's his heckin job and starts to walk forward with purpose. but you know not too fast or anything gotta stay as close as humanly possible to finn like someone might try to walk in between them in the hallway and then they'd never see each other again. an actual thing that could happen????

they end up at the bunks just because that is the only place poe could remember how to get to on mental low battery mode. his bunk looks like literally everyone else's bunk because any cute little personal touches he might have had in his room on d'qar or something are gone now. rip. at least he gets a bunk because the falcon only has sleeping quarters for like seven and there are like ten resistance members so you know some poor souls are sleeping on that couch thing/the floor. poe has the top of one of the triple bunks bc he likes to be as high up as possible at all times. it's his thing. letting go of finn's hand to climb up the ladder is one of the hardest things he's ever had to do in his entire dumbass life but it's a sacrifice he's willing to make.]

[bythehand]

[ okay but like, someone walking between them and separating them and setting them adrift for eternity seems like one hundred percent a possibility in this reality, right now. finn is not prepared to deal with that. he will fuck someone up. these otters are gonna hold their dumb otter hands together in the hallways, because the less space between them, the better.

does finn enjoy this temporary disengaging of the hand movement? no. not hardly. he was literally just thinking about the space between them factor and how it was in a good place of very little. what the fuck. but, in counterpoint, he gets to keep poe in visual range the entire time and there's gonna be way less space between them soon. and he can check out poe's butt while he climbs. he's not blind, alright, he's gonna check out poe's butt.

so really, poe's sacrifice is much greater right now. he'll be remembered forever. ]

You would end up all the way up there.

[ he still doesn't know like 3 facts about poe yet, but something about this he can absolutely just Tell. poe the bird man dameron. anything else would be weird. ]

[followhim]

[i mean, it's a nice butt. no one could blame him. once poe is at the top he just throws his boots and jacket over the end and lets them fall on the floor like a boy with no manners. i'm sure his bunkmates think he's great. but they aren't here right now so whatever it's fine!! just finn and he definitely made sure not to hit him with the discarded parts of his outfit.

he peers back down, grinning. back on his bullshit, clearly, now that there's enough air between them for fresh oxygen to reach his brain.]

I like being high up. That gonna be a problem?

[more like a cat than a bird tbh. he finds the highest place in any given room and goes yep i'm gonna get right up there. that sounds about right.]

[bythehand]

[ poe the cat man dameron. finn really did get a cat when he wasn't looking for anything in his life.

he grins back. sure, he misses the butt. he missed the face more. ]

I've worked with worse.

[ if we're talking cats finn is more of a "you moved the furniture so i'm under the bed for the next 24 hours" cat, but he can love a tall places man. he's not scared of heights or triple bunks. so nah it's not a problem. it's not a dealbreaker.

he climbs up far enough on the ladder to to prop his chin on the edge of the bed. this is the only warning u get poe, bc he is going to get in there. he is going to personally destroy the concept of personal space for both of them and he's going to thrive on it. because in this entire galaxy finn can only get into the mental ballpark of 'belonging' to literally one person without having to do an entire mental backflip away from it, and that one person is in front of his face.

Make 👏 Room 👏 For 👏 The 👏 Omega 👏

OR DON'T I GUESS BUT I MEAN HE'S GONNA GO FOR IT ]

[followhim]

[sometimes life just gives you a cat, ok. it's wild. he's just a cat who wants to be a bird.

ANYWAY whatever his fursona apparently is, he is ready 👏 for 👏 this 👏 . he moves back until he's basically against the wall to make room for finn. i was going to try to pull up falcon schematics again but let's be real these are probably twin-sized beds. it's a tight squeeze, but that's okay because there was never going to be any room left for jesus in the first place. as soon as finn is all the way up, he wraps his arms around him and presses his face against finn's neck because of course he does.

this is great. this is even better than the hallway because there's no annoying voice in the back of his mind saying they should probably move out of the way some time this year. they can stay in the bunk forever and it wouldn't matter. (yeah okay it might matter if leia needs poe to actually do anything at all ever but you know what? not thinking about that right now. thinking is banned. he can only think ten seconds ahead at any given time. on a normal day.)

also: he's actually not super-fond of the idea of ~owning~ anyone in that sort of way as a concept, which is why he tried to broach the subject in the first place? but when he's with finn ... it just makes sense. it's not something morally wrong; they chose each other. and he'd never hurt finn or let anything bad happen to him. well. at least, he is TRYING NOT TO but it's really hard when they are the same brand of reckless relentless psychopath. fire meet gasoline.mp3. it's okay, they can just tag-team pvp the entire first order together. that feels like a thing within the actual realm of possibility while he's laying here getting high on finn-spice.]

This is better than the hallway.

[back to spitting out those greatest hits; he'll be up to this same fuckery all week probably.]

[bythehand]

[ no, time is dumb they're here forever now. space jesus has no place in this arrangement, exactly the way it's meant to be.

this is the complete and total lack of personal space he was waiting for. he can do the smelling equivalent of rolling up into a blanket burrito and ignoring the entire outside world. and everything can feel right. instead of all the things happening all the time while the universe feels like it's placed everything two inches to the left of where it always was. he huffs out a quick laugh. ]

The hallway was better than the Finalizer. We might be getting better at this.

[ third time's the charm, back-on-your-bullshit johnson. ]

[followhim]

[he laughs at that, the sound vibrating against finn's neck.]

A garbage masher'd be better than the Finalizer.

[as someone who usually operates at 1000% all day everyday, it's like everything is slowed way down. maybe down to like 100%. the world is smaller. it's just him and finn and this bunk and literally nothing else. it's a really calm, peaceful feeling. he's actually pretty into it.

one of his arms kind of slowly flails around looking for finn's hand like are you sure you don't still want to be otters? just in case?]

[bythehand]

[ shit, he's right. they should still be otters. otherwise what's the point of finn having this username. ]

I don't know. I put my old Captain into a compacter on Starkiller and she made it out fine.

[ just in time to die like scar in the lion king. ]

Think we'd have better odds of getting out of the garbage.

[ the fact that they made it to think they lost their soulmate on jakku was a testament to sheer luck and living on a bullshit prayer. that's his hot take on it. ]

[followhim]

What? You what?

[ ^ probably hasn't actually heard this story because they've spent like five whole minutes talking to each other? with words, not counting the additional like fifteen minutes that were hey can we bone cool cool cool. i just want to note that i forgot poe was there for that business meeting where they talked about it but he didn't get the debrief on how it went so i stand by my tag. ok cool bye]

That's ... what? [he sounds somewhere between amused and impressed, so at least it's a good thing. he's leaving it behind instead of saying what 30 more times.] You're probably right. Now I have two stories about people getting out of compacters and only one story about people breaking out of the Finalizer.

[it's ok buddy you just don't understand how the force magically bends itself around poe dameron for some unknown reason. maybe it's the tree in his yard.]

[bythehand]

Yeah. It was Han's idea.

[ what better story to start getting to know the person you're bonded to for the rest of your life than "we threw her into the trash compacter". now that it's too late, there are probably lots of better stories.

but you know what, he'd do it again. pvp the first order. throw a space fascist into the garbage where they belong. hell yeah. ]

I was pretty sure it would take when we did. Kind of hoped one story would be the limit.

[followhim]

Yeah. Yeah ... don't worry about it. We'll throw more of 'em in the trash. [if that isn't romantic idk what is. he kisses the back of finn's head; he is slowly acclimating to being in such close contact with him non-stop. he is gonna think those two thoughts. he is gonna kiss him. he's doing his best.]

You know, my dad was a ... he did stuff with Han Solo. I thought he was the most amazing person ever.

[bythehand]

[ honestly that's on brand romance. dumpsters all around. dumpsters for days. everyone retires and gets kissed. all the main pairings are gay. rey and rose go on a date to a junkyard and come back with a fully functioning droid they made.

anyway finn just learned two whole poe facts at once? he's rich. ]

Got all your stories first-hand, huh?

[followhim]

[ oh shit, u right. the meme was true.

poe is chill to just ... keep recounting his life. he didn't know this was an interview.]

Uh-huh. My mom was a pilot for General Organa, too, so I got a lot of stories. My mom was the best pilot. Even better than Han Solo.

[he says it with the authority of a small child whose mom told them she was a superhero or something only he clearly still believes it. except — ]

I might be better than both of them though. Pretty sure I'm the best pilot in the galaxy. Just so you know.

[bythehand]

[ that meme is a prophecy.

finn is living on the poe-spice, okay. this includes the poe voice and the poe life story interview. and holding a poe hand like wayward top bunk otters. it's a very scientific process. he knows what he's about. ]

Who said I didn't already know that? Because I think I already knew that.

[ i mean it's basically a matter of opinion right. everyone objectively knows chewie is probably the best pilot in the galaxy. but poe is his favorite one and he trusts him, so it counts. ]

[followhim]

Yeah, I bet you did. [after he saved your ass ... as long as you don't remember the tether fuckery and the crash landing. you know what it was still pretty good for a ship he literally had never flown before so don't @ him. he bites at finn's ear playfully like. just try to @ him, okay. just try to say something.]

One time the general told me I was the best pilot in the galaxy. And she was married to Han Solo, right, so ... I'm pretty sure it's true.

[bythehand]

[ finn is a petty bi. he's stashing secret receipts on everybody just because it's in his nature. so what if his only official experience of knowing poe was the one flying was tethergate... man he wonders if he'll ever get to see poe fly a different thing.

(finn, you fool. you did on takodana. you were yelling at your alpha all along. fool.)

anyway sorry poe, the rude crude ear biting dude, he's laughing at you for sure now. have a couple of pats on the arm. ]

I'm sure it is. She doesn't seem too big on sugarcoating.

[ like not what he's seen of her so far at least. she's a sensible person. ]

[followhim]

[god damn it finn were you not watching when he was being badass and taking out the dreadnought!!!! i mean ... it's probably for the best if you weren't bc that was kind of disaster. we're not gonna think about it right now. it would bring him down and this is definitely a good vibes only zone. (spoilers i remembered he wasn't because he was fucking unconscious. but i'm not editing the tag because i've already committed to these brackets. i'm sorry you have to watch my half-asleep memory fail in realtime.)

is he still rambling??? yep. probably.]

She's the closest thing I've had to a mom since my mom died. She always ... gives me more chances even when I don't deserve it. You know, it's like ... I'm really glad she's in my life. I'm really glad you're in my life.

[gay. everything has to loop back to how much he loves finn, okay. his beautiful perfect soulmate.]

[bythehand]

[ i wasn't even gonna say anything i was just like it's true he didn't see it either way. but i feel your struggle.

the ramble zone is the ideal zone. now finn likes leia even more than he already did. that's a win. poe's mom being gone is less so. he squeezes his hand. ]

I'm glad you're in mine. [ if we're gonna have gay sleepover style rambles we're going all out in gayness. ] Never really had anyone before. There was my fire team, but.

[ shrug. ]

We weren't there to make friends. Or anything else.

[ last week the closest thing he had to a mom was phasma and he thought of his teammates as friends but they weren't diggin the same vibe... now he has a soulmate and like 3 friends/found space family and he loves revolution? the resistance is rad. first order can get rekt. ]