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[followhim]

[ ????? their entire relationship was based on finn's desire to run away from the first order. WHO ARE YOU?

does finn think he and rey are as bad as the first order??????? oh no here goes galaxy brain. it's not even galaxy brain anymore, it's the galaxy dude after the galaxy brain. he's become galaxy dude.

no, this is stupid. finn is a beautiful amazing angel from heaven. why would he do that?

his single brain cell is overheating. help. ]

working through it when he doesn't know about anything that happened? it's not fair to hold him accountable and talk about all this stuff he didn't even do.

[forcevisions]

Poe, I love you. You know I love you. But you're being stupid.

Finn didn't leave Hathaway because he was running away from you. He did know what happened. He wouldn't have just skipped out on getting through it.

But this Finn want to work through it too — because he cares about you and your feelings. Because he wants to help you. Not because he feels responsible.

Give him the chance.

[followhim]

[ HE DOESN'T BELIEVE HER but he wants to believe in finn. at least, in this finn. he didn't do anything. he literally just showed up to give good news and receive hugs.

maybe she was right. in some way. not about the whole thing. but maybe he could talk about it with finn without the expectation of it ... being some kind of emotional confrontation.

hope is like the sun. have to believe in it even when you can see it. stupid leia wisdom. ]

yeah. maybe we'll get a minute to talk sometime. somewhere around here.

[forcevisions]

Tell me when you do. I'll bite my tongue until then.

[followhim]

thanks. sorry i'm being stupid.

i think it's hard to not be stupid about this stuff.

[forcevisions]

I understand.

That's why it's important to talk about it. You'll drive yourself crazy if you try to hold it all in.

[followhim]

yeah, probably. i already feel pretty crazy now. pretty sure finn thinks i'm crazy, too. i saw him and it was like my brain shut off.

i tried to walk backwards on the beach

[forcevisions]

To get away from him?

[followhim]

yeah. and then i fell over on a rock or something and tried to just lay there

it didn't work

i don't know why i did that

[forcevisions]

Because you saw him and you panicked.

[followhim]

yeah.

maybe it'll be better if we aren't together here. because of all the sex stuff. or maybe it'll be worse. i don't know. i just started thinking about it. right now.

[forcevisions]

[ oh no.






oh no.

she applies this to her relationship with ben. it's a mess. then she remembers that finn offered to do her and poe offered to do her and she almost banged ben on the beach didn't she /? ? it's sort of hazy like the empress' wedding. ]

I didn't think things could get more complicated.

[followhim]

we'll probably have to talk about it, right? not just you and me

but maybe you and me

we can still have sex, but it's okay if it happens with other people too, right? it's not like we can control when they're going to surprise drug us again

[forcevisions]

Finn offered too.

[ SHE CAN'T JUST HOLD THAT INSIDE. ]

You said we should talk about it, so.

[followhim]

with you?

[ ??? he can't ... be salty ... he knows finn and rey were close. are close. closer than finn was with him, apparently.

does it make him a little sad, though? yeah. sad and then annoyed at himself for feeling sad. ]

that's between you guys

[forcevisions]

Poe. If it bothers you, you need to say something.

[followhim]

he's your best friend, and he doesn't remember anything with me. i get it. i do. i'm not gonna be mad about it.

[forcevisions]

Well I don't.

I don't get it. I don't know what to do about any of this.

I need help.

[followhim]

i just mean

you guys are best friends. you want your first time to be special. he probably feels the same way, since. you know. he doesn't remember anything with me, so it's not like you're getting in the middle of something. you should be able to choose whoever you want, so long as they want it back.

so i'm not mad. kind of sad, i guess. but i don't want you to feel sorry for me.

i wonder if everyone else here has to overthink it this much

[forcevisions]

He doesn't remember anything with me either.

[ what she really means here is she thinks he would change his mind if he knew. that he'd never want to touch her if he knew how kylo ren had. but she hardly knows how to say it. she hasn't even found a way to say ben's here and that makes it all more complicated. ]

[followhim]

what? you guys were friends before you came here. did something happen on hathaway that would make it weird? besides me?

[ yes he is this dumb. yes, he needs it spelled out for him.

wait. no. his single brain cell is waking up from its nap. ]

the kylo ren stuff?

[ finn's reaction to kylo ren being here was essentially "KILL THE BEAST" and poe had to be like "???? yeah i dunno maybe we shouldn't kill the beast." that was a time in his life. lots of character development. ]

[forcevisions]

He's here too, you know.

[followhim]

i know.

he kind of saved my life.

[poe: wow it's so fuckin weird to write this i hate it

also poe: KYLO REN WILL HATE IT EVEN MORE IF I TELL REY HE WAS NICE :) ]

[forcevisions]

He what?

[followhim]

i was exploring the facility and i stepped on something. i think it was some kind of trap. it was this goo that was crawling up my leg, i dunno. i was calling for help and kylo ren came. i thought he was just gonna watch me get eaten by goo at first. but then he helped me.

and he acted like a little bitch when i tried to say thank you. it was a whole thing. but i think he didn't let me die because it would've pissed you off