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WISH LIST

my dark au kink:
+ being captured by the first order and subjected to reconditioning
+ trying to turn him back with the power of gay love and friendship (and possibly failing)
+ he was always a first order tie fighter pilot instead of winter soldiered
+ poe and finn first order murder squad (dynamics if they were both stormtroopers? running away together?)
+ ^ part b: the fam that gets captured and reconditioned together… stays…together…
+ Interesting Dynamics with kylo and hux from dark aus


finn stuff
+ what will they do after the war? romantic vacations? homesteading? sending finn's spit to space 23andme?
+ infinite escape reimagining/aus, stormpilot escape room reigning champions

rey stuff
+ relationship of convenience because they're both In Denial
+ sith princess rey aus where he tries to save her and/or she turns him

kylo stuff
+ infinite interrogating/torture room reimagining/aus
+ ^ part b: stockholm syndrome?
+ We Need to Talk about Leia


general
+ honestly anything regarding leia (esp processing grief post-tros)
+ talking about his sketchy spice runner past (possibly playing things taking place during that time in his life?)
+ ^ same for things taking place during academy/new republic tbh
+ i love aus. modern aus, vampire aus, a/b/o aus, let's au the entire world
+ i prefer m/m for poe but am good with most ships

kinks if ya nasty
umbraeternam: till the end of days. (♫ the world may live or die...)

[personal profile] umbraeternam 2018-05-19 07:05 am (UTC)(link)
[ One reason Kylo's glad to have her mask back? No one can see the way she smirks when Poe makes an effort to provoke Hux. It's even more privately amusing seeing as neither of the men are aware of her plan for the pilot, or how she's likely to encourage such provocation in the future.

But, alas, there is business to be done.

The fingers of one hand curl slightly, simultaneously drawing her power snug around Poe's throat. Not enough to choke but the pressure would be uncomfortable. Her gaze focuses on him and her power brushes at his mind with a whisper.

Behave and look suitably beaten down, or I'll be forced to make you.

An additional light flicks on and when the signal is given, Hux is all too happy to launch into a well-rehearsed speech. Kylo wasn't much for speeches personally, so she's content let Hux stroke his ego while she exists as the threatening dark presence in the background. The propaganda video is as much to shove in the Resistance's face that arguably their most important asset is in the hands of the enemy, as it is to spread the news of Kylo's place as Supreme Leader.

And while the General drones on, her attention is mostly on Poe, her power occasionally constricting a little against his throat, absently feeling the pulse of his heartbeat against the invisible leash around his neck. ]
umbraeternam: tfa. (masked Ϟ in the light)

i don't know why i didn't think to upload masked icons earlier for this part -.-

[personal profile] umbraeternam 2018-05-20 05:11 am (UTC)(link)
[ To say she's pleased by the fact he actually listens would be an understatement. Good. They were getting somewhere. She would take the progress, no matter his internal motivation for behaving. That's how a strong spirit is best worn down, after all. Piece by piece and through repetition if need be.

Kylo knew the truth of it all too well.

With Poe behaving, there's no need for her to tighten the leash any more than it is. That's the give and take she hopes he's beginning to understand. If he doesn't give her a reason to hurt him with her abilities, then he could save himself unnecessary pain. If he behaves, then she doesn't have to work her power inside his head and make him behave in spite of himself, causing himself more trauma and pain in the process.

She rouses from her contemplation when Hux becomes animated in his speech and she rolls her eyes behind the mask. Although shortly her eyes are narrowing from the General grabbing Poe by the hair as he loudly gloats to the camera about the pilot's capture. Kylo tenses, just slightly, and she loosens her power around Poe's neck so it, combined with Hux's actions, doesn't cause him to choke.

Her eyes are on Hux, watching carefully. One idea the General had posed, naturally, was to kill or maim the pilot on camera in hopes of thoroughly demoralizing the Resistance. Kylo had shut the idea down quite firmly, but she was weary about him trying to go off-script.

When Hux finally releases Poe with a hard shove she relaxes somewhat, though she shifts her gaze over to the officer working the camera and projects the thought for them to wrap it up. ]
umbraeternam: tfa. (masked Ϟ not tolerating backtalk)

yesssss

[personal profile] umbraeternam 2018-05-20 07:31 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Kylo watches silently. Waiting. Her irritation and aggravation at the General making her warm. It doesn't matter that the little outburst fits in with the theme of the filming just fine. Hux continued to push and push and he was fast using up all her tolerance.

As soon as the camera clicks off Kylo lifts a hand and with a flick of her wrist throws Hux into the nearest wall. ]


When a plan is made you stick to the plan, General.

"Supreme Leader..." [ Hux sputters as he gets to his feet, glaring back at Kylo. If it wasn't obvious before that there was dissent between Leader and General, it certainly was obvious now. ] "We should have killed him. It would break their spirits."

It would galvanize their resolve. [ Kylo fires back. ] Only a fool gives the enemy a martyr to hang their faith and hope upon.

[ Hux fumes, hands curling to fists at his side, and he strides forward. ] "So what, no one can strike your little Resistance pet?"

[ The General only makes it halfway back to where he'd been standing before he's lifted from his feet, gasping as his hands scrabble at the power gripping his neck. Kylo hasn't moved, only raised her arm and outstretched her hand to guide the Force to do her bidding. ]

If you wanted him dead so badly, General, then you should have captured him yourself. Now, I have had about enough of your insubordination and backtalk. You have a job to do and I expect you to do it. If you cannot, I am sure one of our other generals would be happy to take your place. [ As she talks Hux only struggles more, desperately trying to draw air. When he seems on the verge of passing out Kylo finally releases her hold, letting him unceremoniously drop to the ground. ] Do we have an understanding, General, or should I relieve you of your duty?

"It... it will be as you wish... forgive me, Supreme Leader."

[ Satisfied with that for the time being, Kylo relaxes back against the throne and looks to one of her Knights, who had stepped forward at the ready as soon as Hux had begun his protest. ] See that the prisoner is returned to his holding cell and food brought to him. [ She glances back toward Hux but he's too busy rubbing his throat and striding from the room to offer further commentary. ]
umbraeternam: (♫ don't you plead me your case)

[personal profile] umbraeternam 2018-05-21 11:44 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Several days pass without sight of Kylo Ren. The Knights however are a constant presence, rotating in shifts, occasionally coming alert or putting a hand on their weapon when a patrolling stormtrooper or curious officer gets too close to the cell. A meal comes once a day, water slightly more frequent.

Eventually on one of those shift changes the Knight comes to the cell door with a set of restraints. Time for a little stroll.

The room Poe will be brought to has a wall of windows, which presently overlook the ongoing repairs to the Supremacy. Kylo stands before one of the windows, clad in black as usual but without the cloak or helmet. Looking out at the work, she doesn't turn or otherwise acknowledge that she's no longer alone in the room. The Knight, once bringing Poe into the room, will turn and leave silently, taking up a post by the door out in the corridor. ]


It's a bit overkill, isn't it? The largest ship ever constructed. Truly, Snoke's ego would accept nothing less. [ Her lip curls as she speaks her former master's name. ] That ego was his undoing. And now all that was once his belongs to me.

[ Along with one thing that had never been in the foul creature's grasp.

She turns slightly, finally looking back at Poe. ]


You performed well the other day, even with Hux's... interference. He would gleefully flay you alive, I think, if given half a chance. [ Not that she credited the man with that much creativity, but it was said more to drive home the point of just how much hatred Hux had for the pilot. Words of caution, almost. She returns her gaze to the window. ] The holo that was recorded seems to be doing quite well itself. Several new worlds have sought the First Order's allegiance. In time all will see the value in being united.
umbraeternam: (♫ it's an even song it's a melody)

[personal profile] umbraeternam 2018-05-22 04:43 am (UTC)(link)
It is good news. Surely the Resistance is pleased when they gain ground without having to take any lives? Why should it be different on this side? [ Oh, she can guess why he would think it different, but the First Order's goals -- formerly Snoke's -- were not her own. The First Order was a tool and she would wield it as she needed to, however if her control could spread without needing to resort to destruction? She had no qualms about that.

Turning around fully, Kylo leans back against the glass, lightly crossing her arms and one ankle crossing over the other. She regards the state he's in, for the moment putting aside the urge to take a thorough read of his surface thoughts. ]


I know the kind of good news you desire. I can even give you some. There have been no tips as to where the Resistance has gone. That won't remain the case for long, but at least for now they would seem to be safe.

[ It irritates her, just a little, to share that with him. So she shifts the topic. ]

What do you think of the ship? A bit too big for you to fly, I'm afraid. But you'll be getting to see it up close and personal soon.
umbraeternam: royal ; queen ; hapes au (♫ we build up the symbols of power)

[personal profile] umbraeternam 2018-05-24 04:39 am (UTC)(link)
[ She purses her lips, not quite able to keep back a small smirk. He might be trying to keep a tight lid on what he was thinking and feeling, but that in and of itself gave her a hint toward his opinion. That, and his always-present confidence when it came to flying, placed an amusing thought in her head. ]

You know what, I may just take you to the bridge and let you have a look at things, just to see how much of a fit Hux would throw. Not now though. You're yet too... [ Kylo hums a thoughtful noise, making an idle gesture (that for once is simply a gesture) at him. ] ...rebellious. Untrained.

[ If he thought that little remark was going to bother her, he would be disappointed. She merely shrugs a shoulder, casting a glance back over at the ship. ]

Oh, it's an annoyance to be sure. But you should be glad. Needing to repair the flagship has kept most resources and focus here, and not out scouring the galaxy for the Resistance. The delays here will benefit your friends, and Leia.

[ Kylo's gaze returns to Poe, her body language still calm and relaxed. Now that she's had a little time to sit with the knowledge her mother is alive she's been able to settle her emotions to an extent, at least in relation to those that were so on display in the interrogation room. She was able to put aside and put away grief, and the sorrow that had accompanied it. In a way, the news has improved her overall temperament, not that Poe currently had much point of reference when it came to her moods. ] I can see why she would be fond of you. There's some elements of Han in you. You've more loyalty though, that's for certain. And you know how to follow orders, you just don't always choose to. That's a far cry better than only caring about yourself. [ Something her father was obnoxiously good at in her opinion. ]
umbraeternam: till the end of days. (♫ ...than you had let live)

[personal profile] umbraeternam 2018-05-25 03:50 am (UTC)(link)
By the time I'm through I'll know you better than you know yourself.

[ It's a warm promise, said casually and without malice. What need had she for that emotion anymore when it came to him? Malice was best reserved for those she intended to destroy and send to their death. She has far grander plans in mind for Poe.

Kylo closes her eyes a moment as she senses the anger leaking from him, only a drip compared to what he truly feels, she's sure. From others he could better hide it but her training had been bathed in pain and anger and agony and fear. It remains, admittedly, one of the emotions she's most prone to. Just because she could control it better didn't mean she felt it any less.

And, as some liked to say, anger was an easy path to the dark side.

Her eyes open to rest squarely on Poe and she lifts a hand from her arm to crook one finger in a beckoning motion, sending out a small bit of her power through the Force to do her bidding. That power will lightly pull at him, seeking to draw him toward her. ]


You like to hide what you're truly feeling, don't you? Always keeping that armor up as long as you can. I understand. I also understand how exhausting it is. Eventually we all must lay down our armor to rest, even people like you and I. [ It certainly will be curious, to see how he is when he isn't so determined to fight her and hide things from her. Truthfully she yet debated how much would be necessary to change, what she wanted to keep and what would only get in the way. ]

Would you like to know why you're here, Poe? Why you're not already dead or in the midst of some other terrible and painful fate?
umbraeternam: till the end of days. (♫ ...but your innocence is mine)

wherein kylo monologues bc apparently that's what i write at work -.-

[personal profile] umbraeternam 2018-05-26 01:41 am (UTC)(link)
[ Kylo refrains from a smirk or grin, not interested in provoking a fight out of him at the moment. They were having a pleasant conversation -- well, pleasant for her at least. ]

I would be lying if I said I wasn't interested in the information you carry in that pretty head of yours, but that's merely a perk. I didn't spend weeks tracking you down to find the Resistance.

[ Does that surprise him? To know the value she places is on him alone and not his proximity to the heart of the Resistance? From her glimpses inside his mind Kylo can't help but think he views himself a little too much as merely an extension of the Resistance. Thinking like that is for minions; simple soldiers and troopers. She doesn't know when he became her pet project, but perhaps it was an eventuality. Kylo offered Rey the world -- literally -- and was turned down. Practically had it spit in her face, really, with the scavenger making off with her family lightsaber. Again. She couldn't make Rey do what she wanted... but Poe was an entirely different story. ]

As I told you before, the First Order's interests are not my own. Snoke wanted to bring the galaxy to heel, destroying and obliterating at will, and he created the First Order to suit that intent. I'm more interested in uniting the galaxy under a single banner, in building upon what my grandfather and the Empire started. But as you know, a leader can't do it all themselves. The First Order is an extremely useful tool but with Hux at the helm I can only place so much trust in them. Unfortunately, he is yet too useful to kill.

That is where my Knights come in. I'm sure you've been curious as to their presence. Snoke created the Knights of Ren before I walked among them, before I came to lead them, but they are loyal to me and me alone.

Just as you will be.

[ She lets that hang in the air a moment, watching Poe as she pushes away from the glass and steps into the space between them. One of her gloved hands comes up to touch his face and it's almost affectionate. ] You will be my best Knight, I can see it in you. Even though you cannot wield the Force like most of them there is a strength and power within you. Your full potential just waiting to be unlocked. All you need is the right guiding hand. [ Which, naturally, was hers. ]
umbraeternam: till the end of days. (♫ but even death will end in time)

i'm almost afraid for him. she won't kill him but that's almost more reason to worry lol

[personal profile] umbraeternam 2018-05-26 02:39 am (UTC)(link)
[ She feels it -- that wave of panic when it hits him, fills the air around him like a cloying purfume. It doesn't shift her expression or her own energy in the slightest. The reaction is somewhat natural and she lets him have it for now.

When he jerks away the temptation is strong to make him look at her, to catch his jaw or wind her fingers in his hair, but she drops her hand instead. There would be plenty of time for that later. ]


Denying the truth will not change it. Trust, I have been in a similar place before. You will learn as I did. Although likely with less pain.

[ As he brings up Rey her eyes narrow just slightly. Yes, the girl remains a bit of a sore spot for Kylo, but that doesn't mean it would change anything.

It also doesn't change her opinion of how he views himself. Again connecting his value solely to others. She can't place why it bothers her but it does. (It's probably a Brianna thing. She's taken to writing off such 'quirks' as belonging to the other part of her.) ]


Why would this have anything to do with her? If I wanted to strike at her I could do so directly. She's proven that she's not worth my effort.
umbraeternam: (♫ little souvenirs and secrets shared)

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[personal profile] umbraeternam 2018-05-26 04:15 am (UTC)(link)
[ Her eyes narrow further. She stares at him silently, considering. Sensing. ]

Did she tell you? About the choice she turned down, and the choice that she made on the island? [ Kylo had never been able to tell precisely where Rey (and by proxy, Luke) was, but she had seen and sensed enough near the end to gather that much. Hearing Snoke say it when he ripped the location out of Rey's mind had only confirmed Kylo's suspicion. ]

No, I doubt it. The Resistance views her as a hero, she wouldn't tell you all the truth. No more than how you bury your truth beneath attitude and bravado as if it can make what you really feel go away.

[ Kylo closes the distance that he created when he recoiled, not touching him but right in his face, staring down at him slightly. ]

The Dark promised her the answers to the questions she sought, and she heeded its call. In her naivete she didn't even hesitate. She may appear to fight for the Light now but the Dark will be within her forever. She can't run away from it any more than she could run away from the truth about her parents. Nor any more than you can avoid the truth of the path now before you.
Edited (i hate catching grammatical errors after the fact -.-) 2018-05-26 18:40 (UTC)
umbraeternam: (♫ i will drag you down and sell you out)

[personal profile] umbraeternam 2018-05-28 09:50 am (UTC)(link)
Oh yes, she can fight it. She can fight and it will exhaust her, drain everything she has. And at her weakest it will come for her and tell her what she wants to hear. It will come for her and if she doesn't go willingly it will drag her kicking and screaming and take what it wants anyway.

[ It's hard to believe she's only talking about Rey with the subtle shift in her tone and the hint of pain in her eyes, not that either are conscious on her part.

Kylo sighs heavily when he brings up her mother, rolling her eyes. ]


It was on purpose, yes. I never wanted Leia to die. I... I would not see harm come to her if it can be avoided.

[ Don't ask her how she's going to manage that while still allowing the First Order to hunt down the Resistance because she doesn't have an answer to that yet.

She reaches for him again but this time she lightly takes his jaw in her hand so he can't turn away, locking her eyes on his. ]


I am what I need to be. The light would never have survived the things I've endured. You think you know the dark because I've been inside your head a few times... You don't know. You have no idea what it's like to have that presence clawing at you from before you can even recognize what it is. To feel like you're being torn apart, like your soul isn't even your own. Just a vessel for power. A tool in the eyes of others. [ Unintentionally her grip tightens as she speaks, but once she realizes it she lets go, taking a breath and a small step back. ] I don't know why I bother... you don't care. Your mind has been made up. All you see is a monster, like Rey.

And if that is how it's meant to be than I will be the monster, and you... you will be what I need you to be.
umbraeternam: (♫ feels like breathing in sulfur)

[personal profile] umbraeternam 2018-05-28 10:16 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't have to prove anything to anyone. [ She snaps, eyes narrowing. He might be trying to press her buttons to an extent, but there was no guarantee he would like the result he ultimately caused. ] Least of all to you or her.

[ The continued mentioning of her mother makes Kylo grit her teeth, feeling hurt wanting to well up inside her. All those emotions from the past that were supposed to be long buried or erased, supposed to be burned away by the darkness and 'training'. It doesn't help that her father had said something similar. Come home. They all made it sound like such a simple thing. Like there wasn't a galaxy primed and slowly in the process of regarding her the way they regarded Vader. ]

She wants Brianna to come home. She doesn't want -- [ Kylo makes a gesture at herself. ] -- this. What she wants is the girl that she herself sent away to her brother's care, because Skywalker could do no wrong. Well that girl doesn't exist anymore, and her brother is partly to blame.

[ Turning away, Kylo walks back to the window, crossing her arms over her chest as she works to reign back in her emotions. No, her mother didn't want her back. She wanted the idea of her daughter back, the child powerful in the Force from birth but desperate for guidance, for attention and affection that never came from busy parents. Swallowing, Kylo stares at the glass and her reflection. There was no way her mother wanted reality, or the truth. She certainly didn't think Leia wanted to hear how her precious hero brother had tried to kill her daughter out of fear. Especially not now that Luke was gone, destined to be remembered as a hero for giving the Resistance time to escape. The bastard had preyed upon Kylo's weakness, a weakness he gave her all those years ago when he caused her to fear her own family and proved some of Snoke's lies right. ]
umbraeternam: till the end of days. (♫ ... to a hell that heaven made)

[personal profile] umbraeternam 2018-05-29 03:09 am (UTC)(link)
[ Trying to find calm is a struggle for her at best, ever since her turn to the dark side. It's gotten better since Snoke's death; no real surprise there, since now there was no longer anyone intruding in her mind or trying to manipulate her thoughts and emotions. Kylo wants that control because control was power, and she's determined to learn from Crait no matter how it bothers her.

But Poe just keeps going and going and -- ]


Enough!

[ She turns and casts a hand out, throwing out a wave of energy. It's a purely emotional response, a small burst bound to push him back a bit and knock him off his feet at most. She wasn't striking out to hurt, after all, she just wants Poe to stop.

And as she lowers her arm, eyes stinging, she catches on those surface thoughts of his. The thoughts of his own mother, of Leia. They remind her of what she saw in his mind before, how close he and Leia are, how much he cares for her. Kylo's throat tightens and the glare she pins him with is dark with hurt. ]


You say Leia wants me back, but why would she care when she's replaced me with you? I suppose next you're going to try and say that I'm hurting her by having you here. That I should let you go because of her. [ Kylo didn't think she cared but oh, she does. It's an unexpected heartache, one that only compounds the feelings of abandonment she's carried since she was young. Of course she would be replaced. Of course. ] And how do you think your own mother would feel if she were still around, knowing that you found someone else to fill her role?

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